Loverly
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Oct 28, 2014
- Messages
- 197
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Country
- US
- State
- CA
- City
- Orange County
We recognized the first anniversary of Kathy's death on December 20. On january 23, the anniversary of her memorial, my father was admitted to the ER with internal bleeding. It was harrowing, as ER admissions can be. He lost half his blood volume. It's possible he had a stroke at that time. My brother, always absentee, threatened to take us to court because we didn't want to continue life support. It was awful. Eventually he just passed waiting for us to do the right thing.
I have spent the last year trying to mourn, move, start a new job, recover from being fired from new job, and taking care of my dad, whose health has been in decline since our PAL passed.
Now I'm out of work. Im out of a home, because my father's current will cannot be found and the house now becomes part of his estate. Boxes that were never unpacked when we moved must be gone through. Looking at Kathy's clothing makes me weep.
Thinking of how my dad saved his money so he could leave a legacy, which will now be eaten up by probate makes me furious. He should have spent it on himself.
I'm feeling so selfish and sad and angry and the futility of all if it is weighing heavily on me.
yeah, I guess it is all about me this time. there is no one else to care for and i have to face the future on my own merits. i am terrified and so lonely for them.
i'm just rambling now.
jen
I have spent the last year trying to mourn, move, start a new job, recover from being fired from new job, and taking care of my dad, whose health has been in decline since our PAL passed.
Now I'm out of work. Im out of a home, because my father's current will cannot be found and the house now becomes part of his estate. Boxes that were never unpacked when we moved must be gone through. Looking at Kathy's clothing makes me weep.
Thinking of how my dad saved his money so he could leave a legacy, which will now be eaten up by probate makes me furious. He should have spent it on himself.
I'm feeling so selfish and sad and angry and the futility of all if it is weighing heavily on me.
yeah, I guess it is all about me this time. there is no one else to care for and i have to face the future on my own merits. i am terrified and so lonely for them.
i'm just rambling now.
jen