I hope all who celebrate had a great Thanksgiving and others have had a great Fall now that winter is with us.
Long and short of recent events: I went to Hawaii for a week. Beautiful as always. Very good to see family. Had one crumby day where I just really was upset that I would not be flying home to Brian as I was last time I was there.
I went and put my feet in the sand on Waimānalo Beach, stood and looked out at the blue blue sea as the waves come in on my feet and knew Brian is here with me forever. Love does not die.
Back here in the land of ice and snow, we have more snow coming in tomorrow and I am doing my first day of my last two weeks at my current job and starting a new one on 12/23 (yup Christmas week). Same field, I think it will be a better fit.
Lastly after beginning to look around and interacting with lenders, for many reasons I decided that now is NOT the time to sell my house and buy new. I’ll be here another year or two and doing some work besides. It’s a business decision, as real estate must be.
I will however be focusing on making some significant changes and clearing things out.
I further decided that this coming week is the one where I stay focusing on an exercise routine and cleaning up my diet seriously.
This coming Friday marks 9 months since Brian’s passing. I’m not a widow, I’m the wife of an Angel. As such, he has flown off and I am here, living my earthly life. I wonder if I’ll ever be interested in a relationship again. I think the ocean was whispering “yes” to me this week, but I still can’t imagine it.
Waimānalo Beach