Tx Daddy's Girl
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Jun 2, 2013
- Messages
- 137
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Country
- US
- State
- Tx
- City
- Beaumont
It's hard to believe that since we first heard the words "possible ALS" on April 22 that my dad would be where he is today. What was some twitches in his biceps is now full blown. He barely can use his left arm and his right is going quickly, he walks well but slower paced and with a hint of foot drop, he slurs his speech and chokes occasionally. He is refusing a PEG and vent so I know my time with him is brief. It kills me to see this man whom I thought could fix anything and conquer all has been reduced to a shell of himself.
In a way, the fast progression is a blessing and he won't suffer as long but the selfish person in me is fighting for every moment with him. I'm going to be answering tough questions from my 7 year old daughter soon and I don't know how I'm going to do it. Thanksgiving and Christmas are going to be tough - how can I be joyful knowing its most likely my father's last?
This disease is a cruel joke - how is it that it strikes the healthy and vibrant. I know Hod has a plan but I struggle with how His plan can include so much suffering.
In a way, the fast progression is a blessing and he won't suffer as long but the selfish person in me is fighting for every moment with him. I'm going to be answering tough questions from my 7 year old daughter soon and I don't know how I'm going to do it. Thanksgiving and Christmas are going to be tough - how can I be joyful knowing its most likely my father's last?
This disease is a cruel joke - how is it that it strikes the healthy and vibrant. I know Hod has a plan but I struggle with how His plan can include so much suffering.