designdiva,
My mom stopped smoking when she could no longer put a cigarette to her lips very well and also could not suck on it. I was happy about that.
My mom is also back home from the nursing home disaster that lasted almost a month. Actually she went to one for two weeks but she then went to the hospital as a result of neglect (no one was watching her bowel movements and she became so compacted that she then couldn't urinate). We then we tried another. It was awful. She was depressed; the workers had no idea how to treat someone that has ALS; she was depressed. We didn't have even one pleasant conversation or exchange the whole 3 1/2 weeks she was away from the apartment. All I did was put out fires, discuss meds and conditions, listen to her complaints, feel guilty and overwhelmed.
We also now have Hospice on board. They are a help. They do not provide respite help at all, but they do take care of equipment, supplies, and meds. They are also there to help YOU deal with what is going on. They listen!
Mom is the one that wanted to go into the nursing home and it was Mom who decided to go home. She knows she will have times that she will be alone for several hours at a time. Not totally alone as there are always people checking in on her, but not someone by her side. Frankly she will be happier. In the nursing home she would press the call light and it would be anywhere from 15 minutes to an hour before people showed up. If she is going to have complications, or pass for that matter, as a result of on one being by her side for a short while she would rather that happen at home. SHE made the decision to go into a nursing home and SHE made the decision to go home. I give her that.
Hospice told me more than a dozen times that they were VERY CONCERNED that she will not have 24/7 care at home. I also would lose my mind if I were absolutely by her side every minute of every day. With her needs, her FTD, her emotional reactions, I would be absolutely worn out and would never be able to enjoy her as mother/daughter. It is crazy.
After the last Hospice worker told me how concerned they were, I told them I would rather hear solutions rather than problems. I asked them "what would they do if she was their mother?" This is what she wants! She is a grown woman with a progressive disease that will take her life. We all know that. It is an impossible situation and there are no perfect solutions. Quality of life is preferable to some illusion of safety net.
The hospice group we chose has assigned a caseworker who's brother had ALS. We meet her tomorrow. I am hoping she will have insight to the subtle and unusual needs of a PALS.