- Aug 4, 2007
- Sylvan Lake
I find myself often crying, sad for my baby, sad for the mother I never got to be. I had always had this image of the busy mom, the pta mom. We are all scared for our childrens future because we are not sure of what our own future's hold but we all still have today with our children. I tell myself no one knows what tomrrow will bring, we coulg get hit crossing the road. Thank god for our children, they are our source of joy when it feels as if things are bleak. They allow us to smile and laugh on days when if it weren't for them we probably would'nt. We all just assumed we would probably have a lifetime with our children and then we are faced with the possibility of our dreams not coming true. Somedays at the rate I am going down hill I fear my son will never be old enough to know me. My husband at first thought it was silly but now that he sees how sick I am has helped me purchase items I want for my son to have and I have been making sure to have plenty of pictures so my son has memories. Some may think this is jumping the gun but I know my body and I am in big trouble. I just thought I'd start a thread for people that have children so we can share our fears and our joys with our children. We must delight in their every smile, every cuddle, every giggle. In a perfect world our whole family would be healthy, but we have to count our blessings that we have healthy children because we all know if we had a sick child we would wish it was us instead of them. I just thank god for my son he keeps me fighting and laughing everyday!