mamaoftwo
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Ray - you havent seen a long post until you see my first one! These poor folks on here - I subjected them to a novel! So dont worry about the length of your posts. Anything you want to say is worth saying and therefore worth reading. I know what you mean about having somewhere to express yourself. I try not to talk to my husband about all of this because he has a hard time dealing with the fact that anything has changed. He hates having to help me with stuff not because he doesnt want to but because he hates that i need help at all, if you see what I mean.
Re your specific questions, i wish I could answer you better but I think there are others on here more qualified to respond. I will do my best:-
1/ I think there is enough medical evidence to suggest that no matter the disease, mental state will impact upon its course. My only direct experience with that is a friend who beat breast cancer. She cannot prove that her mental attitude improved her prognosis but she is certain of it. She beat all the odds and 4yrs later is cancer free. Stress makes everything worse. One of the PALs here wrote that giving up his fulltime job slowed his progression significantly. You won't beat the disease by thinking positively but you might make it easier to bear.
2/The fasics indicate muscle/nerve death - well yes and no. If they are part of a benign process, they are just annoying. If they are part of MND, then I believe they do signal neuronal demise. Again I am no expert. All I know is that for me the fasics are horrid. They obviously affect you mentally more than physically - a constant reminder that something is terribly wrong. I take neurontin which eases them a bit and mentally that helps.
3/ I dont know about the foot atrophy thing because my atrophy is in my hands.
Last thing - there is always hope. I agree that the people on here who have a diagnosis show unbelievable courage. I openly admit too that the stress of all this causes me to breakdown all the time. I dont have a diagnosis yet but the neuro said that "he knows something is wrong, he just doesnt have a name for it". That uncertainty is awful as Cindy said. I wonder too how if I cannot handle this, how will I cope with a diagnosis, whatever it may be.
I hope your muscle biopsy brings good news. We all want perfect lives and none of us believe that something like this will happen to us. When it does, it is crushing. While no-one wants to have a neurological disorder, people can and do go on. I have two friends with diseases that still live incredibly happy lives. One has MS and has had for 12yrs. She walks with a cane at the age of 37 but has a very full normal life. One has body inclusion myositis (sorry if I spell it wrong). He was diagnosed in his early 40's and is now about to celebrate his 66th birthday. He takes a ton of meds for pain but again has a very full life. All I am trying to say is that not everything is terminal and many are bearable. Even with ALS, there are people on here exceeding medical expecations and living full lives - read Mike's web (quadbliss). It is inspiring to see these people move on with their lives in the face of adversity.
There is someone, Richard, I believe, who posts on the General ALS page. He signs his posts "get on with living or get on with dying". Bottom line is that we only have 2 choices. Make the best of it or give up. I think what all these incredibly courageous people have done is choose life.
Good luck with your biopsy results. Whatever it shows, there are people on here you can talk to.
ps you see, another long post!
Re your specific questions, i wish I could answer you better but I think there are others on here more qualified to respond. I will do my best:-
1/ I think there is enough medical evidence to suggest that no matter the disease, mental state will impact upon its course. My only direct experience with that is a friend who beat breast cancer. She cannot prove that her mental attitude improved her prognosis but she is certain of it. She beat all the odds and 4yrs later is cancer free. Stress makes everything worse. One of the PALs here wrote that giving up his fulltime job slowed his progression significantly. You won't beat the disease by thinking positively but you might make it easier to bear.
2/The fasics indicate muscle/nerve death - well yes and no. If they are part of a benign process, they are just annoying. If they are part of MND, then I believe they do signal neuronal demise. Again I am no expert. All I know is that for me the fasics are horrid. They obviously affect you mentally more than physically - a constant reminder that something is terribly wrong. I take neurontin which eases them a bit and mentally that helps.
3/ I dont know about the foot atrophy thing because my atrophy is in my hands.
Last thing - there is always hope. I agree that the people on here who have a diagnosis show unbelievable courage. I openly admit too that the stress of all this causes me to breakdown all the time. I dont have a diagnosis yet but the neuro said that "he knows something is wrong, he just doesnt have a name for it". That uncertainty is awful as Cindy said. I wonder too how if I cannot handle this, how will I cope with a diagnosis, whatever it may be.
I hope your muscle biopsy brings good news. We all want perfect lives and none of us believe that something like this will happen to us. When it does, it is crushing. While no-one wants to have a neurological disorder, people can and do go on. I have two friends with diseases that still live incredibly happy lives. One has MS and has had for 12yrs. She walks with a cane at the age of 37 but has a very full normal life. One has body inclusion myositis (sorry if I spell it wrong). He was diagnosed in his early 40's and is now about to celebrate his 66th birthday. He takes a ton of meds for pain but again has a very full life. All I am trying to say is that not everything is terminal and many are bearable. Even with ALS, there are people on here exceeding medical expecations and living full lives - read Mike's web (quadbliss). It is inspiring to see these people move on with their lives in the face of adversity.
There is someone, Richard, I believe, who posts on the General ALS page. He signs his posts "get on with living or get on with dying". Bottom line is that we only have 2 choices. Make the best of it or give up. I think what all these incredibly courageous people have done is choose life.
Good luck with your biopsy results. Whatever it shows, there are people on here you can talk to.
ps you see, another long post!