Michelle You said a mouthful! It takes everything not to walk away! Today my PALS had an appointment to see the chiropractor and his legs were so weak he could not stand so I could dress him I couldn't get him off the commode smh his legs buckled when he went to sit down. BTW he does not walk or stand but we use the Walker for him to pull up and kinda transfer to the toilet. That is getting very hard as his legs get weaker.Yes, I go through the same thing...all the time. Sometimes I just feel like a loaded down mule and one more thing will break my back! "Affection" is the last thing I am capable of at this point. I love him, he knows I love him or surely I wouldn't stay around for this! Just this morning he asked me why I don't wake him up to "cuddle" like I used to. I told him that the mornings, while he is still sleeping, is the ONLY quiet time I have...ever. And I need it.
This past weekend I had a houseful of guests. His son and daughter, his son's wife, and his ex-wife, mother to his daughter. She has COPD and is on continuous O2 and has trouble getting around. The two of the sat around and reminisced about the old days while I was racing around, cleaning up accidents, feeding everyone, and just feeling like I was a nurse/maid on a geriatric unit! All that made it bearable was knowing they were leaving Sunday.
After they left I was so tired I wanted to die. Al looks at me and asks why I'm so tired? I truly wanted to choke him to death. I decided ALS patients must lose all feeling for their caregivers. I have nothing in my life I enjoy any longer, it's just a constant tending to his needs...and me wondering if it will ever end. Then we have the trilogy alarming all night long. It's not going to be in use tonight, I can promise you that! So you ARE NOT ALONE...,welcome to HELL.
You said nothing wrong and glad that worked for them but that is just the last thing on the list for me. And as I stated earlier I had the same complaint before ALS and I was ignored and now the roll is reversed due to no one's fault but you can't expect me to bring back what was pretty much gone before this disease. That's not fair to me but he counderstands care less smh lol. If it wasn't for the church I'd let him have ano escort lol. Thanks MikeI'm gonna pay for this.
What I'm saying now is not directed at the original poster or anybody in particular. I just have something to say about sex and ALS in general.
I've "spoken" to a couple of couples on this board, years ago, no longer here, about this very subject.
In one case, the paralyzed man was lucky enough to have a caregiving wife who was very accommodating to give him full satisfaction quite often. That could have been a great relationship if it made them both happy, but he was emotionally abusive and didn't give his wife any appreciation, not even a thank you. Broke her heart.
Sometimes, it's natural for persons with a terminal illness to get highly focused on themselves. Can't blame them. As Mark Twain supposedly said: "Nothing so focuses the mind as knowing you're to be hanged in the morning."
In the other case, the paralyzed wife never asked for anything, but she did appreciate that he still paid attention to their sexual relationship, both his and hers. On the occasions he could slide into the hospital bed, she liked that. And sometimes he simply massaged her with his fingers, with no care for his own needs. It made her feel that their relationship had not deteriorated into the "patient/caregiver" relationship that sometimes happens.
It seems to me that a little goes a long way.
OK. I'm ready. Let me have it.