- Apr 11, 2007
- Loved one DX
I have a question that I've been struggling with posting, not sure how to ask, not sure if appropriate, not sure I want to truly know....as some of you know by previous messages, my dad was diagnosed with ALS in Feb 07. He is such a fighter! He is my hero, I can't imiagine what he has been going thru over the past year, as hard as it's been on us, I know for him, as independant as he is/was it has to be such a struggle to keep that beautiful smile on his face. My question is, my dad is getting VERY weak, of course gets very short of breath and now, can't use the bathroom on his own (and I don't mean tinklin'). It's like the muscles in his rectum just have quit on him and my mom is having to help him out with this. Of course this is so uncomfortable for him and last night was horrible. He was in so much pain and discomfort, it just breaks my heart for him and for my mom. Their 38th wedding anniversary is tomorrow (12/21) and my heart aches thinking it will be their last. Also, my brother is leaving for Iraq in January and I feel as if this will be the last time my dad will see my brother. AND....we are trying to adopt a child, our only child (we are currently fostering her) and we found out that it's possible that the grandparents want her, "possibly" so I guess my cup runneth over and I just don't know where else to turn. I am so worried about my dad, I think his heart is breaking for my brother with him leaving and for me going thru all of this with our little one and I feel so guilty because I feel like I am adding stress to him and it is bring him down even more than usual. After all that babling I guess I just wanted to know, does it sound like things are shutting down on him and he is nearing the end? Like I said above, not sure if I want to know for sure but I think I need to hear it to help me in some strange way. Thank you all for your support you give, you are such wonderful people to know!