I'm finally able to log on again. Was having trouble but now I can. Anyway my hubby has to use the bedpan now to. He gets mad, but I cannot physically lift him anymore. He is too week. Legs collapse and I have been injured myself yesterday trying to lift him. I said no more, for safety he needs to use bedpan. But he needed to go again tonight and was mad, wanted toilet. I said no, bedpan.,so after awhile I hoyered him into bed, he lite kicked me 4 times refusing to go to bed. I said I will put the tv on, and if you need bed pan you are set for it. Anyway it's almost time for pills and Ned anyway. Help please he kept kicking me and said **** you like 3 times. For someone who can't barely speak at all, he sure can stil, swear perfectly. He also has a foley catch in so moving him to toilet was also a problem with that being careful not having it pulled out. And no to anyone who asks if I get help, the answer is no, we only have hospice RN come 1 time a week for supplies and vitals. I. So sick of this disease and being treated this way.