- Jul 23, 2010
- Lost a loved one
So tomorrow will mark one month since the passing of my mother. I heard from several people that the grief can strike at it's worst sometimes up to 6 months later. Things have been not that bad so far. The 2 days before she died and the day after were the worst. Then I didn't know whether I was in just a get through it mode while family and friends constantly checked on me or just that I had a year to prepare. I really hoped it was all that I had already been through. Tonight while watching one of her favorite tv shows come back from a big cliffhanger last season, and realizing that she won't be here to talk about it with hit me. Also today at work planning for a mothers day ad got me thinking but I had to shift focus or I was going fall apart. Even though I had the prep time and do feel like I have to be outwardly strong I know know it's going to be subtle thing that will get to me and will have to either be prepped for or will have the privacy to let it out. Saturday is the walk to defeat ALS in Minneapolis. It would have been her 68th birthday that day. I have great friends walking with me that mean the world to me. Just hoping God will help me to balance properly how and when I accept help. Sorry- just needed to vent to a community that understands the grief, the guilt, and the relief that all goes with losing a loved one to this unbelievablely cruel disease. My heart goes out to all of you dealing with or have dealt with this horrific thing.