Ronnie& sissy
Active member
- Joined
- Jan 12, 2014
- Messages
- 62
- Reason
- CALS
- Diagnosis
- 09/2012
- Country
- US
- State
- WV
- City
- Cameron
Well, we are day 5 into our first hospice/ hospital facility stay. Things aren't looking too good, no since in getting into all the detailed Dr. Talk....... I guess we all know what the end looks like.
I've just been so upset for one; well the obvious and two the forum would not allow me to log in, so I couldn't talk to you all clear from Sep. til now. ( and I paid 150.00 to be on here)
But I m here now, so I guess that's all that matters.....
It's been really lonely not being able to talk to people that know what your going through.
My poor hunny is slipping away from, and I have to let him, not sure how long it's gonna be now, but it's close....... He says he can tell he feels it... I'm just so sad....and mad. And just down right heart broken, feels like I can't breathe. ( sorry bad choice of words) but that's what it feels like.
I guess I just need a few cyber hugs from the people that have gotten me through this far!
My world is crumbling, and all I can do is sit and watch!
F****** bull****!
Ok, enough of that.....I feel bi polar at times, cause I keep going from bawling to forcing myself to snap out of it and back to bawling! I feel so selfish just typing all this because he is the one that is passing and I still get to live, and it's just not fair or right, or anything!
So lost".........
I've just been so upset for one; well the obvious and two the forum would not allow me to log in, so I couldn't talk to you all clear from Sep. til now. ( and I paid 150.00 to be on here)
But I m here now, so I guess that's all that matters.....
It's been really lonely not being able to talk to people that know what your going through.
My poor hunny is slipping away from, and I have to let him, not sure how long it's gonna be now, but it's close....... He says he can tell he feels it... I'm just so sad....and mad. And just down right heart broken, feels like I can't breathe. ( sorry bad choice of words) but that's what it feels like.
I guess I just need a few cyber hugs from the people that have gotten me through this far!
My world is crumbling, and all I can do is sit and watch!
F****** bull****!
Ok, enough of that.....I feel bi polar at times, cause I keep going from bawling to forcing myself to snap out of it and back to bawling! I feel so selfish just typing all this because he is the one that is passing and I still get to live, and it's just not fair or right, or anything!
So lost".........