Manhattanite
Distinguished member
- Joined
- May 10, 2015
- Messages
- 209
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 05/2015
- Country
- US
- State
- NY
- City
- New York
that it would hurt this much. I have never experienced pain like this before. It's only 24 hours since my PALS died and there is still so much to come... the burial in 2 days. I don't know how I'm going to go through that. I wish he had asked to be cremated but he wanted a burial instead.
I thought I was out of tears - I cried for a month after diagnosis and then stopped. But now I can't stop crying again and this time it is different. What a cruel process where the grieving started two years ago and it changed and escalated.
I thought I was prepared but nothing prepares you for this. I feel traumatized after finding him on the floor yesterday, it is an image that I can't erase from my mind.
This is the most horrible thing I have had to endure in my life. I know I will overcome it, but right now it just hurts so so bad.
I thought I was out of tears - I cried for a month after diagnosis and then stopped. But now I can't stop crying again and this time it is different. What a cruel process where the grieving started two years ago and it changed and escalated.
I thought I was prepared but nothing prepares you for this. I feel traumatized after finding him on the floor yesterday, it is an image that I can't erase from my mind.
This is the most horrible thing I have had to endure in my life. I know I will overcome it, but right now it just hurts so so bad.