Hi Everyone....Again I want to thank you all for your kind words. My mum passed away at 9am on July 4th. She was at home & smiled at her husband before drawing her last breath. she was a wonderful, caring woman who loved gardening & bird watching. Now she is with God in His garden. I'm no longer afraid for her because I know she's finally at peace...I feel that with every fiber of my being. The past 2 days, I've felt a great calm sensation within me. The first day however, I felt like I had been hit by a truck. Even though I was expecting her to leave this world, it was still a shock. She was walking & talking just less than a year ago. How suddenly her symptoms came on. She was in so much pain & so heavily medicated towards the end, so for her I'm thankful that her suffering is over. Someone from my church told me about "redeptive suffering";whereby a person's pain can actually release souls in purgatory. I'd never heard that before, yet the more I thought about it, the more it made sense. It brings me a lot of comfort to know that her suffering was not in vain. Three masses were given in her honor yesterday & today I go to the funeral home for the viewings. Tommorow she will be laid to rest in the same cemetary as my brother. In the guest book of her online obituary, many kind sentiments were written about her character, all of them true. My prayer today, is that her spirit & strong faith will shine forth from me to help those who are devastated by her passing. While I mourn & grieve for her, I also have this very powerful sense of peace, that I hope to pass on to others. Last night in my sleep, my husband told me that I was laughing. I think that I was communicating with my mother, who loved to laugh also. While I miss seeing her, hearing her voice & feeling her hugs & kisses, I do know that her spirit so strong, will always remain. Though we are on different planes of existence, my mother & I will always communicate. She's with my brother now & her parents and importantly, she's with God. I will continue to visit here & hopefully help support those who's journey was much like mine. God Bless you all, Adele