Hi Marne, your post about your partner touched me badly because is similar to my story.
i'm in Australia , WA but i am from Europe. i came across your post and it made me burst into tears. i am loosing my partner to MND she is only 48, it's horrible, she has deteriorated so quickly in a few months, it breaks my hearth watching her now, she can't speak , she in in a wheelchair and can't move any single part of her body, just in few months. she is dying and has been keep asking me to make her ill (she uses an ipad to communicate ).
I cry every single day, every day is without sense, i don't know how i'll survive this , i think i wont, the pain is unbearable. This time around last year we used to go down the beach and now she is just trying to survive as long as she can. i've been her primary caregiver (on my own,) for nearly 1 year and now she is in home care.
i don't have anyone around to talk to about this or vent ( just a few friends but they can't understand), i am European as i mentioned and she is the reason way i settled down in this country, my only family (i have a brother and my mother back in europe but we dont get along), my best friend, soulmate...we had some many dreams, after covid we wanted to finally go to Europe together. (we have been together for 6 years), im isolating myself from everyone and im angry with everything, including this country.
i reached out to a counselor and she was just helpless, i find more relief on this website. i try to talk to my dad sometimes and it helps ( he passed away many years ago but i hope he can hear me...just starting crying .., he was the only person who could really be empathetic in any sort of difficult situation).
thanks for reading my post.