Kristina1
Senior member
- Joined
- Jan 26, 2017
- Messages
- 822
- Reason
- PALS
- Diagnosis
- 03/2017
- Country
- US
- State
- MA
- City
- Grafton
I need to share this with people who know what im going through.
I am very shaken up after worst laryngospasm to-date last night. I have been getting them over the past year, and this one was ten times worse than any ive had before. I went to breathe in and hit a rock solid wall. I tried to speak to tell my family I need help and not a single sound came out. It stretched on and on and I was sure I would die right there at the dining room table in front of my three young children. My husband wasn't even in the room. He came in because I guess they yelled for him to help, and he held me in his arms and started talking me through it. I don't even remember him coming in just that somehow he was holding me and I was hearing his voice. It finally, finally started to release, and then it was sucking air through a too-small straw for several long minutes.
The rest of the night I couldn't stop panic attacks just being in the dining room. I cried myself to sleep and I still feel so afraid. I don't want to die like that. It made me realize how much I need to be careful eating. I dont just mean the laryngospasms, but I could choke, and unlike the spasm, it wouldn't release eventually. It could really kill me. And I am sitting here scared to eat. Looking at food and just seeing a loaded gun.
Im sorry if I sound over dramatic, Im just shaken to my core. It's not my first time having one, but in the past my husband helped me calm down and they released. This one lasted so long. And didnt start to release til he got in the room to help. What if it happens and im alone? What if I can't calm down by myself and I really do die that way?
I am very shaken up after worst laryngospasm to-date last night. I have been getting them over the past year, and this one was ten times worse than any ive had before. I went to breathe in and hit a rock solid wall. I tried to speak to tell my family I need help and not a single sound came out. It stretched on and on and I was sure I would die right there at the dining room table in front of my three young children. My husband wasn't even in the room. He came in because I guess they yelled for him to help, and he held me in his arms and started talking me through it. I don't even remember him coming in just that somehow he was holding me and I was hearing his voice. It finally, finally started to release, and then it was sucking air through a too-small straw for several long minutes.
The rest of the night I couldn't stop panic attacks just being in the dining room. I cried myself to sleep and I still feel so afraid. I don't want to die like that. It made me realize how much I need to be careful eating. I dont just mean the laryngospasms, but I could choke, and unlike the spasm, it wouldn't release eventually. It could really kill me. And I am sitting here scared to eat. Looking at food and just seeing a loaded gun.
Im sorry if I sound over dramatic, Im just shaken to my core. It's not my first time having one, but in the past my husband helped me calm down and they released. This one lasted so long. And didnt start to release til he got in the room to help. What if it happens and im alone? What if I can't calm down by myself and I really do die that way?