smoochiegal
Active member
- Joined
- Jan 3, 2015
- Messages
- 87
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 08/2014
- Country
- CA
- State
- Ontario
- City
- Otonabee
Hello my friends...
What a rough go we have been having.
I don't even know where or how to start....
My husband is so not him anymore.
He was such a loving, caring man who would do anything to protect and show me how much he loves me.
How he is doing angry hurtful things and when I ask him about them later, he says he doesn't remember... I don't know whether to believe him or not...
The morning of my nieces wedding he was angry that I was having a friend of his stay with him so when I got up in the morning he told me to open up all the pill bottles for him as he was going to take all of them while I was at the wedding. I felt like he was punishing me for having to be gone that day. And I felt like he did not want me to enjoy my day... It was the first day I have been away from him since March!
When I tried to talk to him about it, he said, I don't remember that.
He said the same thing about a few other things that hve happened.
I am so angy with him. I am angry because I don't know if I can believe anything he says. I am angry because he seems to not give a flying f*** about me anymore.
He gets up at night 5 or 6 times to have a smoke... or course he can't do it on his own so he wakes me to help... when I ask if he can just go back to bed he gets angry and says he is still alive and if he wants a smoke then he sould be able to have one...
I am so tired.
I am feeling bitter.
I hate feeling bitter and angry.
I want to enjoy our last times together but I am not at all...
I need some perspective, some wisdom, some strength...
I need somthing.
Cheryl
What a rough go we have been having.
I don't even know where or how to start....
My husband is so not him anymore.
He was such a loving, caring man who would do anything to protect and show me how much he loves me.
How he is doing angry hurtful things and when I ask him about them later, he says he doesn't remember... I don't know whether to believe him or not...
The morning of my nieces wedding he was angry that I was having a friend of his stay with him so when I got up in the morning he told me to open up all the pill bottles for him as he was going to take all of them while I was at the wedding. I felt like he was punishing me for having to be gone that day. And I felt like he did not want me to enjoy my day... It was the first day I have been away from him since March!
When I tried to talk to him about it, he said, I don't remember that.
He said the same thing about a few other things that hve happened.
I am so angy with him. I am angry because I don't know if I can believe anything he says. I am angry because he seems to not give a flying f*** about me anymore.
He gets up at night 5 or 6 times to have a smoke... or course he can't do it on his own so he wakes me to help... when I ask if he can just go back to bed he gets angry and says he is still alive and if he wants a smoke then he sould be able to have one...
I am so tired.
I am feeling bitter.
I hate feeling bitter and angry.
I want to enjoy our last times together but I am not at all...
I need some perspective, some wisdom, some strength...
I need somthing.
Cheryl