Hi cukita. I am so sorry to hear about the problems you are having. Have you tried talking to your son? I am sure he is not angry at you, because you have been diagnosed'ed with this terrible disease. Why is your husband blaming you for it? What is he? A saint? Your husband knows, believe me, he knows he did wrong, he knows he is a failure, because he left you for someone else during this time when you need him the most. How long were you'll married? Does your son get along good with his dad? No, no, no please don't let this man make you believe that the reason your son is angry is because of you. Is he blaming you for his infidelity, too? What a heel of a man!
Cukita, about your son. He is 18 years old. He is a man. He can take care of himself. You gave him life, you cared for him, you have no one to take care of you, I presume, so why is he behaving like this? I have heard of children on this forum, a lot younger than your son, that wanna help their ailing parents. My deceased son's son was 5 or 6 years old when he became ill with Als, he was always by his side helping him. He helped his dad with little things till the day he passed, and this was a 6 year old. I see a sad picture, please don't be mad at me for what I am going to say. I see a sad picture, because your husband skipped out on you, left with someone else, and now your son is angry, and no one knows why. You are his terminally ill mom, he should really be compassionate towards you, and his behavior is not helping you at all.
This is one thing I cannot understand. I cannot leave this forum. I keep up with everything that is going on. I see quite a few folks here that get treated so badly by their own blood. I cannot understand this. I hate to opine, because I am afraid that I might say the wrong thing, but dammit, I hate to see people get treated so badly when they need help the most. This monster (als) came into my world, too, but I did not let this damn disease destroy our world. We have to be there for each other, our loved ones' days are numbered, the best we can do is express lots and lots of love, and make their final days comfortable. It is not a good feeling when these Pals leave us, so let's be there for them. These folks are trapped, they can't move, they can't talk, they can't eat, they struggle to breathe. This disease is pure hell. These folks they deserve the best care, especially from their loved ones.
cukita, I hope and pray that your son will one day find God, and ask him for guidance. Dear, please don't blame yourself for all of this. May God bless you! Prayers your way!