The Pain of Grief
I had no idea it would be this hard. I can't sleep and struggle to put one foot in front of the other. It is so difficult to not only lose my best friend and sole mate, but the go from being needed 24 hrs. a day every day to nothing, just lost. It is so much more than I can bear. I have been told several times that God does not put more on you than you can bear, well that's crap. In the Bible he was referring to temptation not pain and grief. I just don't know how to get through each day. Tim's funeral was Saturday, then at 2am on Sunday in the middle of the night in my pj's with a huge blanket to wrap up in, I sat at the gravesite and just cried till my eyes swelled almost shut. Then Monday morning at 3am I did the same thing. I know it's nuts to go out at night alone and sit in a crave yard, but it is so peaceful and I just want to be as close as possible to him. I know it's just his body, but I think I am losing my mind. I feel this deep dark cloud taking over my life.
Any thoughts or advice would be greatly appreciated.
Windy