poppy62
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Jul 3, 2012
- Messages
- 132
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 05/2012
- Country
- uk
- State
- mid glamorgan
- City
- caerphilly
We reached a new situation today, it's been coming for a little while. My Pals doesn't want to go out anymore, not even to see his elderly parents and sister who live 40mins away by car. His mobility is failing but he can still do a few steps, enough to get in and out the car, transfers etc. He doesn't even want to get dressed and snuggles under the duvet naked...I have to nag him to put underwear at least on when visitors are due.
He doesn't take his anti-dep meds at all, and resists all help to make him more comfy, he 'endures' gp/nurse/physio visits, you can see it in his face that he can't wait for them to go, he just wants to be left alone, apart from me that is, who he requires by his side at all times..and I am, apart from bathroom visits and trips to the kitchen.
I love him to bits and am doing my best to look after him but the prospect of not setting foot outside the door for who knows how long is a bit daunting.
I actually don't 'need' to go anywhere (but it would be nice to know I could pop out). I shop online, meds are delivered, even the gp does home visits. My children come by now as it's been getting harder to visit with hubby as he is.
But now I find myself wanting an hour or so by myself. Not for any great purpose but just a change of scenery, a bit of window-shopping, recharge my battery, think of something other than hubby's als. Does that make me a bad person?
I know he is frightenend to be on his own for any length of time, I can't leave him but I have just recently considered getting a sitter, which didn't go down well. I can't make him see I am affected by all this too. It's not that I want to leave him, I just need a little break away from it now and again. He behaves like I want to vanish into the sunset.
It doesn't help that the weather's turned and he feels the cold so bad but he won't wrap up
My daughter said she would stay with him for me to visit my grandchildren but he said no. He can be a difficult man. Do I just go ahead and bear the brunt when I get home?
How do so many people cope with their loved ones? How do you cope with yourself if you do leave your Pals with a sitter (family or other)? Am I selfish for wanting an hour out? Any advice welcome, any different approaches I could use?
Has anybody left their Pals with a sitter against their wishes...how did it pan out?
He doesn't take his anti-dep meds at all, and resists all help to make him more comfy, he 'endures' gp/nurse/physio visits, you can see it in his face that he can't wait for them to go, he just wants to be left alone, apart from me that is, who he requires by his side at all times..and I am, apart from bathroom visits and trips to the kitchen.
I love him to bits and am doing my best to look after him but the prospect of not setting foot outside the door for who knows how long is a bit daunting.
I actually don't 'need' to go anywhere (but it would be nice to know I could pop out). I shop online, meds are delivered, even the gp does home visits. My children come by now as it's been getting harder to visit with hubby as he is.
But now I find myself wanting an hour or so by myself. Not for any great purpose but just a change of scenery, a bit of window-shopping, recharge my battery, think of something other than hubby's als. Does that make me a bad person?
I know he is frightenend to be on his own for any length of time, I can't leave him but I have just recently considered getting a sitter, which didn't go down well. I can't make him see I am affected by all this too. It's not that I want to leave him, I just need a little break away from it now and again. He behaves like I want to vanish into the sunset.
It doesn't help that the weather's turned and he feels the cold so bad but he won't wrap up
My daughter said she would stay with him for me to visit my grandchildren but he said no. He can be a difficult man. Do I just go ahead and bear the brunt when I get home?
How do so many people cope with their loved ones? How do you cope with yourself if you do leave your Pals with a sitter (family or other)? Am I selfish for wanting an hour out? Any advice welcome, any different approaches I could use?
Has anybody left their Pals with a sitter against their wishes...how did it pan out?