OMG April, you are so much down the same road i went.
I'm still there, but April, my life is sooooo much better right now. I live with the twitches, cramps.
Trust me, your mind is making you sooo sick right now. The anxiety and worry is making you literally ill. Trust me i was there.
April, first, you need to find a good person to talk too. I found one of the best doctors to talk to, he got me thru all of it. find you a good psych! Trust me. My psych has belived me from day one and still to this day says i very much could have it, but he has cured my anxiety and worry.
Today, i feel so much better, but yes still have the ALS symptom crap. Will I be diagnosed,,,,,,prob. so, down the road.
I found that not worrying about it and freaking over it makes things much easier to cope. I stay away from doctors now, taken a break and it's been a year. I still see a local neuro and we've come to an understanding that i'll see him every 6 months and if it comes, it comes. Right now, if it comes there is literally nothing i can do about it except get on his ALS clinic list, get on SS, get on the MDA list and then...hope for a cure.... not much to be excited about getting on.
So, April, as hard as it sounds, you need to try to get on with life. You need help, you need someone to listen to you and help you thru it. This internet forum, as good as it is, is not person to person help. Please, for me, find you a psych, make sure it's the right one....you will know if they are the right one.
Your just like me, have something wrong, we all know it and now a biopsy that shows scattered atrophic fibers. Go look up my biopsy results....it was called "essentially" normal. Go look up the dictionary def. of essentially.! That will scare the crap out of you! Mine showed "rare" atrophic and "rare" denervated fibers and the dr. told me the same thing, that it was from reduced activity. now, i know that was full of sh_t, but what am i to do.
Well, take care and PM me if needed.
Rgds,
Jamie