Anne
Honestly, I really do not know how I am doing....
A little about me, I've never really posted on here, but I am constantly reading the posts everyday. It helps. It really makes you feel that you are not alone.
My Dad was diagnosed last September. So, I guess its been pretty much exactley a year. He passed at home, just where he wanted to be. And if I had to pick a way, how it would all play out, I guess you could say we were lucky.
I live far away, but would fly home every two weeks to see him. The week before he passed, he sat me down and talked to me about everything. He knew it was coming.... and he told me he loved me and all that and I told him how much I loved him etc... we were very close. He passed 5 days later.
Last week the funeral came and went, and now I am back to life working etc...
Its weird, I feel a huge relief. I was sick to my stomach for the past year worried about him, and hated seeing him and my family suffer.... so I feel a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulder. However, along with that feeling, I feel guilty for feeling relieved- does that make sense?
I am also worried about my Mom being alone. They were married for 39 years.
Its really, really crazy.......
I just don't know what to do.