Very sorry for your loss Shelly, I wish you courage for the days&months ahead. You have been a great carer for all this time - your patience&love was evident in your posts.
I went through the same thing last August. It has been a year since my wife of 39 years passed on. A year filled with pain, but with hope also. I keep thinking of seeing her paralyzed and now she is free. That is about all that gets me through. It has been one of the hardest things I have ever gone through. Would I want her back like she was?NO. Do I still love her and miss her? Yes.
Oh Shelly, I am so very sorry. You did such a wonderful job in everything you did for Fred, from caring for him to the wonderful tribute to him to begin this thread. You are a strong and wonderful woman. I wish you comfort. Kris