LeslieR
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- Joined
- Mar 23, 2017
- Messages
- 16
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 03/2017
- Country
- US
- State
- TX
- City
- Humble
So... I have only posted once after my dad was diagnosed last year. Since that time he and my mom moved in with me. (last July) He has a feeding tube and has been hospitalized 3 times with a variety of issues. He is on a trilogy ventilator with a noninvasive mask.
He has lost all speech and has limited use of his hands. He jots things down in a shaky hand on a boogie board and sleeps alot. He takes ativan and morphine one or two times a day and more at night. He has no swallow and gets panicked if he has to cough (which he can barely do). He gets a hot flash with his episodes of air hunger.
He has chosen not to get a trach or invasive ventilation and he has been admitted to hospice. I can't help but wonder how much time he has left? There have been a few days where I thought he might be getting close to the end and then he perked up, again! It is such a horrible roller coaster and I feel guilty for whining because I cannot imagine what he is going through. And my poor mom! They have been married 55 years - almost 56.
I guess I am just rambling with no real purpose other than to share what we are going through.
Love to all-
Leslie
He has lost all speech and has limited use of his hands. He jots things down in a shaky hand on a boogie board and sleeps alot. He takes ativan and morphine one or two times a day and more at night. He has no swallow and gets panicked if he has to cough (which he can barely do). He gets a hot flash with his episodes of air hunger.
He has chosen not to get a trach or invasive ventilation and he has been admitted to hospice. I can't help but wonder how much time he has left? There have been a few days where I thought he might be getting close to the end and then he perked up, again! It is such a horrible roller coaster and I feel guilty for whining because I cannot imagine what he is going through. And my poor mom! They have been married 55 years - almost 56.
I guess I am just rambling with no real purpose other than to share what we are going through.
Love to all-
Leslie