Rachel
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- Joined
- Oct 14, 2007
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- Reason
- Lost a loved one
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- UK
- State
- Essex
- City
- Colchester
My beautiful mum sadly passed away on Monday evening after suffering so much from bulbar onset MND.
She died very peacefully in her sleep about an hour and a half after we had left her from our visit to the North London Hospice. Despite knowing that she was nearing the end (she had been heavily sedated since the previous Wednesday) the phone call still came as a shock as when we had left her she had been breathing steadily and looked so peaceful.
My dad is finding it extremely difficult to cope after 47 years of marriage and admitted if I hadn't been with him when the phone call came he would have taken several paracetamol too many to dull the pain.
I know she wouldn't want me to be sad but the waves of grief are frequent and unexpected. I don't even have to be thinking of her when the darkness hits & the tears flow.
I'm not sure how we will all get through the funeral on Thursday. She bore this disease with immense courage and never complained. I can't begin to imagine what she went through in the past 11 months since she was diagnosed.
Sorry to be so down but I wanted to share my thoughts with you
She died very peacefully in her sleep about an hour and a half after we had left her from our visit to the North London Hospice. Despite knowing that she was nearing the end (she had been heavily sedated since the previous Wednesday) the phone call still came as a shock as when we had left her she had been breathing steadily and looked so peaceful.
My dad is finding it extremely difficult to cope after 47 years of marriage and admitted if I hadn't been with him when the phone call came he would have taken several paracetamol too many to dull the pain.
I know she wouldn't want me to be sad but the waves of grief are frequent and unexpected. I don't even have to be thinking of her when the darkness hits & the tears flow.
I'm not sure how we will all get through the funeral on Thursday. She bore this disease with immense courage and never complained. I can't begin to imagine what she went through in the past 11 months since she was diagnosed.
Sorry to be so down but I wanted to share my thoughts with you