jmnn78
New member
- Joined
- Mar 26, 2016
- Messages
- 5
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Diagnosis
- 01/2016
- Country
- US
- State
- North Dakota
- City
- Burlington
Hi there. Some of you may know Sprawl. He is my husband and was diagnosed with ALS in January. I have so many emotions varying from day to day. Part of me just hopes that this diagnosis was a mistake. Like this can't be happening right now. I also get angry because this is my best friend. He is the only one that gets me and we make such a wonderful team with our life goals, raising the kids and such. We have been married for just about 16 years. The years have flown by just so fast.
I worry about what this disease will do to him. He is a very busy guy and always gives 110% in what he does. I also worry about our kids (they are 7 and 8). They both think that their dad is the greatest person in the whole world. Will I be strong enough for them? Sorry I seem to jump around a lot but it feels like my mind is racing all the time. I just want to throw a fit like a 3-year-old yelling about how unfair this is. I don't want to lose him. I don't want to see him suffer. It gets a little easier some days and we are able to joke about it. The hardest thing is that it's hard to talk about the future. When the kids graduate high school, get their driver's license and things like that. I am just having troubles dealing with this. I don't want to be struggling so hard. I don't want to make him feel worse about the diagnosis. I just feel so lost right now.
I worry about what this disease will do to him. He is a very busy guy and always gives 110% in what he does. I also worry about our kids (they are 7 and 8). They both think that their dad is the greatest person in the whole world. Will I be strong enough for them? Sorry I seem to jump around a lot but it feels like my mind is racing all the time. I just want to throw a fit like a 3-year-old yelling about how unfair this is. I don't want to lose him. I don't want to see him suffer. It gets a little easier some days and we are able to joke about it. The hardest thing is that it's hard to talk about the future. When the kids graduate high school, get their driver's license and things like that. I am just having troubles dealing with this. I don't want to be struggling so hard. I don't want to make him feel worse about the diagnosis. I just feel so lost right now.