OnTheRiver
New member
- Joined
- Nov 22, 2020
- Messages
- 2
- Reason
- PALS
- Diagnosis
- 11/2020
- Country
- US
- State
- VA
- City
- Barhamsville
Thank you for existing. For taking precious time to share advice. Ten days ago my ALS diagnosis was confirmed. I had fasciculations and nerve issues in my hand in 2018, so my neurologist thinks I've been a brewing pot, but something in this wayward body triggered a rapid progression. One day I completed all my barn chores, worked up a good sweat, and took my dogs for a walk to cool down. Seemingly over night I couldn't make it up the stairs. My body is a flight of twitches. During the many times I wake up at night, my first thought is "this must be a mistake". Daylight brings magical thinking. Perhaps some bizarre combination of good and bad habits will result in a miracle cure. I have to ask, will this new life always be surreal? Will I have a new normal? Are there days when you don't cry? How do we balance wanting to live for our families yet not burden them? The sadness is overwhelming except for that brief moment when I wake up at night and I think I've had a bad dream.