my mother, my best friend in the world was diagnosed in january of this year with bulpar als. she is the rock of our family, at the same time she has lost so much ability to do even the simple things in life that people tend to take advantage of. she can hardly do anything for herself and has had quite a few falls. my dad is her primary care giver and i am her secondary one. i am with her every day. there is an awful pit in my stomach when i watch her try to do things. i am so scared for her. and i also worry about my dad because my parents are so tight and i fear he will let himself go. i am a volunteer at the hamilton als society and have met wonderful people with als- PALS. sometimes i think i know too much and that is why i have such a pit in my stomach that just wont go away. i shake alot too. when i am with my family i put on the strong act so i dont get sadness going in the room. i certainly am not ready to loose my mother. i feel there is no real way to cope or handle the devastation. thank you for listening.