- Feb 4, 2009
- Lost a loved one
I've been an infrequent visitor here since my wife was diagnosed with ALS about 2 1/2 years ago. I find myself withdrawing from life to a great degree, what with all the demands that are put on me. I know I'm not being a great husband, or father, or even employee for that matter. When I'm at work I'm constantly worried about whether she's okay, when I'm home I'm always jumping in to help when I'm not wanted. Seems like I can't win in any situation and it's really getting me down. I'm not a religious person but I've come to believe that if there were one thing that could be put before me to challenge me and force me to learn a lesson, this would be that opportunity. I frequently question whether I'm up to the challenge though. I'm just posting this here today because I find I can't cry anymore and I need to let it out somehow.