My Precious Mom
:neutral: Hello everyone,
I wrote to you all about Mom being diagnosed with als. Well I can see she
is getting weaker but her eating is still good. She hasn't choked as much since
she is taking her Rilutek. I guess I am wanting to know what all we can do
when she gets to the point where she can't get out of bed herself or wash
herself in sink in mornings or walk out to the kitchen to the table. Or get
up at nite to go to bathroom. I know all this is going to happen and we have
an appt. on sunday to talk to the hospice people. This is so hard to watch my
dear lil precious Mom like this. I can't even imagine how it must be for her.
Her speech has gotton worse. I just hate this. She lives with My Sister and Brother
and I am so blessed to have her with them. I had to quit my job so I could take
care of her and be with her. I am there mon-fri 8 to 5. I feed her her 3 meals
and take her for rides and just spend time with her. I want to make every
second count. I lost my Daddy 2 1/2 years ago and was with him to the end.
Its hard to go thru all this again but I know God will give us all the strength
to do all we can for Mom and help keep us going. I try to put on a happy face
and laugh and its easy but its getting harder. I sometimes hope God will take
her before she really gets bad and I don't want her suffering. What really is
hard also is she knows everything that is happening to her. Wow. What hell
that would be. She still walks with her walker but slower now. We have a bath
aid twice aweek to help us but soon she will have to go. I really hope hospice can
help us. When I get home I keep a journal like I did with my Dad. I thank God
for letting this be a Good day with her. with really no problems. I wake up and
pray that this will be a good day with Mom and she will eat good and not
choke. It really is taking a tole on me. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't have
it any other way and I am so Blessed to Have my sister and brother there with
her taking good care of her. They both have full time jobs. If I have said this all
before, forgive me. I just need you all out there right now. It gets overwhelming
as you all may know. It took 1 year to find out what was wrong with her. that
is what sucks also. It mimics so many other diseases. How do I communicate
with her when I can't understand what she is trying to tell me? Get a pad out
and let her write it down for now. I did today but when you are out and about
and she is trying to talk .. and you can't understand her?
its just
so hard.
Thank you all for being out there and here for me. You all are
wonderful folk with your own problems but we are all here to help eachother.
Please help give me advise on this. If anyone has had a loved one in their
later stages could you explain to me what you did and what all happen.
Thanks so much and God Bless You and Your families.
Diane