Markbreton
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Apr 17, 2006
- Messages
- 102
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Diagnosis
- 02/2006
- Country
- CA
- State
- Ontario
- City
- Smiths Falls
Well, it finally happened. My wife fell...thank gawd she had her cell phone on her. She was able to text my cell phone as she can no longer speak..at all! Unfortunately when i saw the message I was an hour away from home and she had sent the message 3 hours earlier! Panic set in....I text her back and asked if she was OK and all I got back was "I can't". I called 911.... They connected me with one of the constables who was on duty whom I knew very well. She flew to the house and found Tammy lying on the floor, helped her up and stayed with her for awhile. Tammy had tripped and she does not have the strength to lift herself back up. 2 days later another trip but this time the children were home (teanagers). Tammy split her head open and had to be rushed to the hospital for stiches. She can no longer eat, has a peg tube, can no longer speak, has a voice machine, uses bipap at night but can still walk with a walker. She stopped driving a month ago. A nurse comes in every day to meet with her, but Tammy will soon require more help than that. I like many others cannot quit work...we have children in school and University. I now take piles of antidepressants to help me cope and I could take more. I HATE seeing my love like this and I feel so helpless. The ASL society assigned me a coach to help me deal with this...he lost his wife to ALS 4 years ago and I just love him....turning out to be a great friend and support person. But even still when I get home and see Tammy struggling with so many things it always brings a tear to my eyes. She has a much better outlook than I have. If I could just find that darn lamp...3 wishes would be, make Tammy better, find a cure for ALS, stop global conflict. But alas only in my dreams. I try to stay strong for my wife, hug her every chance I get, tell her i love her a 1000 time a day, do everything I can to help her and its never enough....I'm failing!
Mark
Mark