parakeet
New member
- Joined
- Apr 6, 2017
- Messages
- 2
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Diagnosis
- 02/2017
- Country
- US
- State
- FL
- City
- Green Cove Springs
Hi all,
My sister-in-law (my brother's wife) is in the last stages of bulbar ALS -- only a bit of movement possible in fingertips and lower legs. She can still talk, but my brother can interpret only about half of what she says. She coughs and chokes on her saliva many times during the day. Her difficulty in swallowing mushed foods is declining rapidly.
Since my brother spends most of the week in the facility she is in and can't commute from his home, he rents a room for those days. I flew up from Florida to stay at the house and take care of my brother when he is home.
Here's my question: My brother loves his wife of 25 years and is in agony over her rapid decline (her symptoms began only last June). Seeing her rapid decline and increasing discomfort has him wishing that she would die sooner rather than later, for her sake as well as his own. Yet he thinks he's selfish and cold for almost wishing she would die. I'm far enough removed from the situation to understand his feelings, but he feels tremendous guilt for even having them. Are these feelings normal? Do primary caretakers sometimes wish it was all over with already?
Thanks for any responses.
parakeet
My sister-in-law (my brother's wife) is in the last stages of bulbar ALS -- only a bit of movement possible in fingertips and lower legs. She can still talk, but my brother can interpret only about half of what she says. She coughs and chokes on her saliva many times during the day. Her difficulty in swallowing mushed foods is declining rapidly.
Since my brother spends most of the week in the facility she is in and can't commute from his home, he rents a room for those days. I flew up from Florida to stay at the house and take care of my brother when he is home.
Here's my question: My brother loves his wife of 25 years and is in agony over her rapid decline (her symptoms began only last June). Seeing her rapid decline and increasing discomfort has him wishing that she would die sooner rather than later, for her sake as well as his own. Yet he thinks he's selfish and cold for almost wishing she would die. I'm far enough removed from the situation to understand his feelings, but he feels tremendous guilt for even having them. Are these feelings normal? Do primary caretakers sometimes wish it was all over with already?
Thanks for any responses.
parakeet