My dear Rudy,
Hi sweetheart! It has been 2 years ago today since you passed (6-03-07), and I still miss you oh so much. I think about you all the time. To me it seems like an eternity. May you rest in peace, my son. I am still praying for a cure for Als. I have learned so much from you son. I miss your phone calls, your visits, your silly jokes, in other words, I miss everything about you. Two nights ago I was awakened at the sound of your voice as I dozed off. I heard your voice so loud and clear, you called me "mom" I wish I knew what that meant. Your voice had no Als sound at all. I am convinced you are in heaven, and He gave you your voice back.
So many things have happened since you left us. Your brother Shannon and Jenni are having another baby, another boy. I know you would've been so happy for them, and I know you are! Your baby girl Cece is a beautiful young lady. Still single, and you are not a grandpa yet. I miss you so. My God, dear your 41st birthday is coming up on June 18th. It saddens me and I cry at the thought that I did not get to watch you age. I am so sad. Your dad's health is not so hot. I care for him 24/7, and I feel tired all the time. My life is just not the same as when you were here, but one of these days I will be looking forward to seeing you again. Hang in there dear one, I'll be there. Just promise me that you will be there to meet me at the Pearly Gates. Until then...am wrapping this up with something nice for you.
Love...Your mom who loves you and misses you,
Irma
I Love You Son
My dear son Rudy, I miss you so much
It keeps hurting, I still cry
My eyes always search for you in the sky
Heart longs for finding you in heaven.
My dear son! I love you so very much
I feel so empty without you
My future is not the same without you
Heart longs for being around you for my safety.
My dear son! You are my angel
I still feel that you are caring for me from above
I tell my broken heart that you are still watching me
Heart longs for you care even from heaven.
My dear son! You are my protector
I remember you when I feel lonely
I talk to you when I break into pieces
Heart longs for your support even from heaven.
My dear son! I was thinking I gave you life
The reality is that you had given me life
Without you and your presence, it's hard to go on
Heart longs for your company in my heart until I exist
Please be there in my heart.........
I love you Rudy, and I miss you.
Love,
Mom