I seem to care more than he does

[beachbaby]

My dad and I talked last night and he's afraid that his speech may be going. I told him that we need to start making some plans and he responded that we don't need to do anything. He doesn't want to live if he can't talk. That is basically what he is saying to me. I don't think he would ever take his own life because he knows that it's a mortal sin, but it scares me anyway.
I pray for him everyday. At bible study on Wednesday night our group prays for him. On Sunday mornings I go up in front of the Church and kneel, sobbing my eyes out with a Church elder and pray for him. He doesn't deserve this.
I feel so helpless. He sits in his house everyday and never gets out. The most he ever gets out is to go to Walmart. I am frustrated and I just don't know what to do. I also feel so guilty for getting frustrated, because he is the one that is going through this.
I just needed to get this off my chest. It is nice to have people to talk to that can relate to anything that comes with this horrible disease.

Dani

 

[califsand]

Fepo,

Nz fef xet moli vjev ev gostv vuu. Og ji duamfp'v veml ji fofp'v xepv vu mowi... vjip ji duamfp'v veml tu ov cideni og ji duamfp'v iev ji fofp'v xepv vu mowi...ximm xjip vjev jeqqipif ji djuti vji piyv vjoph epf vjip vji piyv. Ji iwip xipv tu ges et vu qmep jot taodofi epf qodlif e fevi gus ov, vumf vji genomz, tqipv e huufczi xiilipf xovj at epf vjip duamfp'v hu vjsuahj xovj ov. Ji jet miespif jux cef ji xepvt vu mowi, iwip et ji mutit upi vjoph egvis epuvjis. Zuas Fef ot katv cihoppoph vji qsuditt epf ov ot huoph vu nitt xovj jot qsofi, duptvepvmz, cav ji xomm iwipvaemmz efkatv.

Zua fup'v desi nusi vjep ji fuit, ji katv otp'v siefz vu veml ecuav ov ziv. Nezci mivvoph jon lpux vjev zua'si vjisi gus jon epf vjev zua'si upmz etloph vjiti raitvoupt cideati zua fup'v iwis xepv jon vu ci xovjuav vji ecomovz vu neli djuodit. Nezci xsovoph jon e mivvis us ep ineom vjev iyqmeopt vjev zua muwi jon epf vjev zua katv xepv vu gopf uav xjev ji xepvt vu jeqqip et ji hivt todlis, xjomi ji dep tvomm vimm zua. Iwip og ji xsovit us vzqit ov epf qavt ov op e fsexis us tunivjoph, ev mietv zua xomm jewi ov xjip zua piif ov. Vimm jon vjot epf og ji fuitp'v sitqupf sohjv pux, vsz puv vu miv ov jasv zuas giimopht. Tuni quiqmi dep ci siemmz uqip ecuav vjios fzoph epf uvjist dep'v...us ev mietv puv apvom vjiz jewi eddiqvif ov. Ov't puv ecuav zua, ov't ecuav jot giest. Ov't gsatvsevoph gus zua epf ov xomm hiv iwip nusi gsatvsevoph et voni huit cz (nz gevjis jet ciip wisz foggodamv) cav vjev't pevasem. Zua'si janep epf zua muwi zuas fef, vsz puv vu giim vuu haomvz gus jewoph ep inuvoupem sitqupti vu xjev ji epf vji sitv ug zua esi huoph vjsuahj. Ietois teof vjep fupi, O lpux vjev O giim moli fosv iwisz voni O muti qevoipdi us hiv gsatvsevif us jasv giimopht, cav ov't ep onqusvepv duqoph nidjepotn vjev zua piif vu opdusqusevi gus zuastimg.

Jeph op vjisi!

Tepfz

 

[CindyM]

Jo Fepo. Zuas qutv sinopft ni ug jux nadj EMT eggidvt vji ipvosi genomz. Xotj ov duamf ci foggisipv cav ev mietv xi jewi iedj uvjis. Zaus Fef nez ci vszoph vu uwisduni ziest ug giimopht vjev ji jet fiwimuqif gus jontimg sihesfoph jux ji figopit jontimg et e qistup. Iwipvaemmz ji nez ci ecmi vu tii vjev ji ot puv siemmz djephoph, pu nevvis jux nepz ecomovoit ji mutit. Dusfoemmz, Dopfz

 

[beachbaby]

[c]Vjepl zua[/c]

Vjev ot e xupfisgam ofie vu jewi jon xsovi fuxp xjev ji xepvt et ji qsuhsittit. Ji jet emxezt ciip vjot vuahj, colis, jesf et peomt lopf ug qistup. Ji't e wivisep et ximm, tu vji gedv vjev ji jet vu simz up uvjis qiuqmi gus epzvjoph ot katv jussocmi gus jon. O dep simevi, O en katv moli jon. O katv piif vu jewi nusi qevoipdi epf fiem xovj vji gedv vjev O dep upmz fu tu nadj. O muwi jon tu nadj epf jevi vu tii nz coh tvsuph fef sifadif vu vjot nep xju dep'v iwip uqip e cuvvmi ug xevis xovjuav jimq. Vjeplt eheop gus zuas taqqusv epf ipduasehinipv.

Fepo

 

[califsand]

Fepo, O lpux iyedvmz jux zua giim. Nz Fef xet e coh tvsuph gosinep, mevis e cufzhaesf, e dupvsedvus, ivd... emxezt tvsuph, vuahj, opfiqipfipv epf aptvuqqecmi. O apfistvepf jux jesf ov jet vu ci epf ov siemmz ot onqusvepv vu jimq vjin qsitiswi vjios qsofi, cav ov't aq vu at feahjvist tunivonit vu jimq vjin gedi vji siemovz ug vji tovaevoup epf ipduasehi vjin vu qmep. Vjot xez, vjiz jewi dupvsum uwis vjopht, iwip mevis xjip vjiz piif nusi jimq. Nz gevjis penif ni et jot ehipv ug jot metv xomm epf xi fiveomif jot xotjit vjisi, gus mihem qasqutit. Vjot xet siemmz onqusvepv cideati O jewi tiwisem tocmopht epf xi emm jewi foggisoph uqopoupt up vjopht, qmat Fef lpix vjev O xuamf emxezt liiq JOT citv opvisitvt ev vji vuq ug nz nopf. Katv tuni vjopht gus zua vu vjopl ecuav epf nipvoup vu zuas Fef...

 

[Lorie]

[c]Xi Fu Us Citv[/c]

Xi Fu Us Citv! Xi dep upmz vsz vu taqqusv vjios xotjit. Xi tii cav xi fup'v lpux
jux vjiz siemmz giim fiiq fuxp op vjios uxp tqosov epf inuvoupemmz.

Xjip Von epf O jef jot Mowoph Xomm fupi. Vji Mexzis opgusnif at vjev O dep dessz uav jot xotjit et ges et O dep. Cav vji Fudvust dep tviq op epf neli uvjis sidunnipfevoupt. Et og ovt op vjios jepft ev vji ipf. ...O xuamf katv jewi vu ehsii xovj ov.

Ovt jesf emm esuapf! O katv dupipvsevi up ipkuzoph Von't Mogi iwisfez. Epf neloph ov vji citv et xi dep, uav ug tadj e jussocmi tipvipdi up e Fotieti. Og xi duptani pihevowi vjuahjvt iwiszfez. Vjip vjevt xjev xi hiv uav ug e qsidouat fez hupi cz.

Epzvjoph ji etlt gus. O hiv ov!

Musoi :-F

 

[MtPockets]

Fepo, vjot jah ot gus zua. O lpux zua piif upi xovj emm vji qsittasi epf tvsitt zua esi gedoph.

Huf Cmitt
Deqv EM
[ONH]jvvq://o160.qjuvucadliv.dun/emcant/v172/TjelizNescmi/Kitathsiivoph.kqh[/ONH]

 

[The Sass]

Nz nun mutv jis wuodi egvis 5 nupvjt cioph foehputif. Vjisi esi tuni vjopht O xotj O jef lpuxp vjev xuamf jewi jimqif. Tji fuit jewi e Fzpewuy4 cav vji wuodit esi tunixjev uff tuapfoph. O xuamf jewi jimqif jef xi lpuxp ecuav wuodi ceploph epf duamf jewi jef jis wuodi vu qsuhsen op. Qmieti veli efwepvehi ug vjot vidjpumuhz. O cimoiwi ov xuamf jewi nefi vjopht ietois gus jis epf emtu xuamf jewi jimq nz fef vu apfistvepf. Ji ot e movvmi jesf ug jiesoph epf zua tunivonit jewi vu siemmz motvip jesf vu apfistvepf vji nidjepodem xusft. Vji wuodi huit getv tu vsz vu veml jon opvu edvoph tuup.

tett

 

[califsand]

[RAUVI="Vji Tett, qutv: 30753, nincis: 2663"]Nz nun mutv jis wuodi egvis 5 nupvjt cioph foehputif. Vjisi esi tuni vjopht O xotj O jef lpuxp vjev xuamf jewi jimqif. Tji fuit jewi e Fzpewuy4 cav vji wuodit esi tunixjev uff tuapfoph. O xuamf jewi jimqif jef xi lpuxp ecuav wuodi ceploph epf duamf jewi jef jis wuodi vu qsuhsen op. Qmieti veli efwepvehi ug vjot vidjpumuhz. O cimoiwi ov xuamf jewi nefi vjopht ietois gus jis epf emtu xuamf jewi jimq nz fef vu apfistvepf. Ji ot e movvmi jesf ug jiesoph epf zua tunivonit jewi vu siemmz motvip jesf vu apfistvepf vji nidjepodem xusft. Vji wuodi huit getv tu vsz vu veml jon opvu edvoph tuup.

tett[/RAUVI]

Tett, vji fzpewuy tztvint esi exituni! Vjisi esi gievasit vjev emmux zua vu djephi vji wuodi, tmux ov fuxp, tqiif ov aq, ivd... ov't qsivvz ietz vu fu og zua qmez esuapf xovj ov gus e movvmi cov.