eesquared
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Hey guys,
It all started about a two weeks ago when I was at a dinner party. I was pouring a drink out of the bottle when I realized my hand was shaking pretty bad. It felt shaky/weak and felt off the rest of the night. Woke up the next day and my hand felt tired. It felt like it was harder to do things. For the next few days this continued... mind you, I wasn't dropping anything and when I wanted to perform a task, I was able to do it. Just felt like it took more effort than normal. Then one night I was goggling my symptoms (not a smart idea) and this site popped up. I started to read and that is when the fear/ anxiety set in.
From that point on it has been a constant battle in my brain on trying to figure it all out. The hand in question is my non-dominate left hand and I got the smart idea to start testing my grip and pinch strengths. Well what do you know, my left hand is smaller than and not as strong as my right. This freaked me out. I would test each finger over and over again. Realizing that the biggest difference was in my ring and pinky fingers. Now it was not different as in one hand was able to hold weight for long periods of time and the other were could hardly pick something up.... but still the right is bit stronger.
I kept telling myself that it is normal, but the fear won’t leave. I kept testing over and over again and now it is to the point that my hands (mainly my left) are tired/ sore. I even have a twitch/tremor in my left ring finger…. That little bit sent me through the roof knowing that twitching was a symptom.(But part of me thinks that the finger is twitching because I have muscle fatigue from testing so much. But I don’t know!) As it stands now, my left is weaker than the right and it hurts too much to test anymore. I think part of that weakness has to do with the unusual workout I am putting my muscles through…. But my brain just won’t accept that.
I even went in to the GP today and talked to him about my fear and ALS. He played with my hands, fingers, and wrists a bit. I preformed a few resistance stuff and he said “You are not clinically weak and not even weak.” Part of me was relived, but part of me thinks that it was a premature statement since we only did basic stuff. He didn't even look at the fingers individually, just general hand stuff.
I know I am over thinking a lot of this, but I need to hear from you guys. What does normal hand/upper limb onset look like? If I did have ulnar stuff, what should I look for? The question that keeps stinking in my head is this: Could this be the beginning stages of ALS or just perceived weakness multiplied with fear?
I am 24 year old male who is complaining about non-dominate onset.. the odds are in my favor, but for some reason it doesn't feel that way. I ask for your advice and opinion. Thank you for your time and know I have so much respect for the help/humanity that takes place here on this forum.
It all started about a two weeks ago when I was at a dinner party. I was pouring a drink out of the bottle when I realized my hand was shaking pretty bad. It felt shaky/weak and felt off the rest of the night. Woke up the next day and my hand felt tired. It felt like it was harder to do things. For the next few days this continued... mind you, I wasn't dropping anything and when I wanted to perform a task, I was able to do it. Just felt like it took more effort than normal. Then one night I was goggling my symptoms (not a smart idea) and this site popped up. I started to read and that is when the fear/ anxiety set in.
From that point on it has been a constant battle in my brain on trying to figure it all out. The hand in question is my non-dominate left hand and I got the smart idea to start testing my grip and pinch strengths. Well what do you know, my left hand is smaller than and not as strong as my right. This freaked me out. I would test each finger over and over again. Realizing that the biggest difference was in my ring and pinky fingers. Now it was not different as in one hand was able to hold weight for long periods of time and the other were could hardly pick something up.... but still the right is bit stronger.
I kept telling myself that it is normal, but the fear won’t leave. I kept testing over and over again and now it is to the point that my hands (mainly my left) are tired/ sore. I even have a twitch/tremor in my left ring finger…. That little bit sent me through the roof knowing that twitching was a symptom.(But part of me thinks that the finger is twitching because I have muscle fatigue from testing so much. But I don’t know!) As it stands now, my left is weaker than the right and it hurts too much to test anymore. I think part of that weakness has to do with the unusual workout I am putting my muscles through…. But my brain just won’t accept that.
I even went in to the GP today and talked to him about my fear and ALS. He played with my hands, fingers, and wrists a bit. I preformed a few resistance stuff and he said “You are not clinically weak and not even weak.” Part of me was relived, but part of me thinks that it was a premature statement since we only did basic stuff. He didn't even look at the fingers individually, just general hand stuff.
I know I am over thinking a lot of this, but I need to hear from you guys. What does normal hand/upper limb onset look like? If I did have ulnar stuff, what should I look for? The question that keeps stinking in my head is this: Could this be the beginning stages of ALS or just perceived weakness multiplied with fear?
I am 24 year old male who is complaining about non-dominate onset.. the odds are in my favor, but for some reason it doesn't feel that way. I ask for your advice and opinion. Thank you for your time and know I have so much respect for the help/humanity that takes place here on this forum.