califsand
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Sep 21, 2007
- Messages
- 237
- Diagnosis
- 01/2004
- Country
- US
- State
- ca
- City
- sant barbara
Carl,
Many of us identify who we are so closely with who are parents are and it is hard to not have them around in defining moments of our lives. Although you don't have reason to feel guilt, it is not abnormal to feel that way. With the loss of our parent (mine died 6 1/2 weeks ago) we lose part of ourselves... we lose that person that we want to share all of our accomplishments with and that we want to turn to when we are disappointed. It is terribly sad to need them and for them to not be there. It is also normal to be angry at them for leaving us... even after watching them be sick and suffer from something as awful as ALS. No matter what age we are, most of us look to our parents often for guidance, an example, comfort and unconditional love. It is hard to live without those things, especially from a parent that you may have been able to really relate to while growing up. Maybe this issue becomes harder for you now than when you were younger because you are craving those things only a father can give to you. You are embarking on the adult phase of your life and feel the loss of him. Counseling may be a great way to help you cope with the feelings of loss and while it may seem strange to some that you feel you need it now, so many years after he has passed, there really isn't anything strange about it at all. I'm impressed with your ability to articulate what you are feeling and hope to hear that you seek the help you deserve.
Take care,
Sandy
Many of us identify who we are so closely with who are parents are and it is hard to not have them around in defining moments of our lives. Although you don't have reason to feel guilt, it is not abnormal to feel that way. With the loss of our parent (mine died 6 1/2 weeks ago) we lose part of ourselves... we lose that person that we want to share all of our accomplishments with and that we want to turn to when we are disappointed. It is terribly sad to need them and for them to not be there. It is also normal to be angry at them for leaving us... even after watching them be sick and suffer from something as awful as ALS. No matter what age we are, most of us look to our parents often for guidance, an example, comfort and unconditional love. It is hard to live without those things, especially from a parent that you may have been able to really relate to while growing up. Maybe this issue becomes harder for you now than when you were younger because you are craving those things only a father can give to you. You are embarking on the adult phase of your life and feel the loss of him. Counseling may be a great way to help you cope with the feelings of loss and while it may seem strange to some that you feel you need it now, so many years after he has passed, there really isn't anything strange about it at all. I'm impressed with your ability to articulate what you are feeling and hope to hear that you seek the help you deserve.
Take care,
Sandy