SPMV
New member
- Joined
- Jun 6, 2012
- Messages
- 7
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Country
- GT
- State
- Guatemala
- City
- Guatemala
I am new here and I feel terrible guilty. My lovely mom, 72, was diagnosed 4 months ago. I have read a lot about ALS and I don´t want her to go through all this. Sometimes I feel that is better for her to suffer a heart attack of something and end all this. She was always extremely independent, now she is not anymore. I never saw her cry, now she cries and screams for nothing. She still can eat, walk, barely can talk, but is deteoreorating quite fast. This is horrible. I don´t want her too suffer. I want her to die peacefully and go to heaven without going through all of this, but at the same time I feel guilty for wanting her to go ... this is horrible! I don´t want my mom to suffer, I don´t want my dad (75) to go through this, I don´t want that her grandkids have to see how she is losing every capacity. I love her so much that I don´t want her to suffer. I sometimes think that is better for her not to take the Rilutek, since that will only make the suffering period longer. I cry every day because I see her like this.