Very sorry to read about your diagnosis, and only 54 years old. It hits so hard at first and will take time to absorb. There is time, though. Things won't happen all at once. There will be time to address each stage, each new situation, so try not to panic. I'm 8 months into it now, and can testify that as things unfold with this disease, solutions arise with each problem, with ample time to address each one. There is time, too, to live, to still enjoy life, to draw close to your loved ones, and to make precious memories. For me and many others, having a terminal diagnosis helps one to live "better" in the sense of living more in the moment, appreciating the beauty of life all around you, focussing on the important things and loving more intensely. Unlike people who die suddenly, we are given the gift of time to prepare, to say our good-byes, which for you won't happen for a long time, hopefully years. Allow yourself time to grieve, to hold each other close, to plan vacations and short get-aways. Try not to succumb to lasting, debilitating fear, despair and anxiety, which can threaten to rob you of your precious time on earth. Rise above it, again and again, and you will find joy in life. These are just some thoughts from my experience. Keeping you in my prayers, Ed and Alana.
Charlene