piinkman
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Hello,
at first im sorry, i will probably do a lot of grammar mistakes, since my main language is german and i'm not very fluent in english.
If this text is to long for you, then you can skip to the end, where i wrote most of my symptoms.
And i really don't want to steal to much of your time, so i will follow your rules and if you say you don't think its ALS i will accept it and i won't start arguing.
Before i tell my story i will start with yes! I do have anxiety, and really, really bad anxiety. I thought i had so many diseases and none of my fears turned out to be true.
But this, is the worst fear i ever had and it just wont stop, because my symptoms wont stop.
It all started last year in june. I noticed that i have a tremor in my fingers but did not think about it to much, because i'm addicted to suboxone and diazepam, so you would think that tremor is very common in people who are addicted.
Then one day, i would paint the walls. It was just a little spot i had to paint and i hold the brush like 5 minutes. After i finished, my thumb started twitching uncontrollably. It scared me so much. So i made an appointment with my neurologist who send me to an MRI because he thought i maybe had the willsons disease.
At the MRI they found that my basalganglia are hyperintens. Then it all started. And it did not stop until today, i got 2 bloodtests they where all negative. Only my CK was about 6 points over the norm. Now one year later i had another MRI and the hyperintensity is gone.
At this point, you probalby wonder, what any of this has to do with ALS. I fear ALS because in this last year since june, came a lot of new symptoms. St first, my thumbs would shake when i used my smartphone, it came from time to time. So this went on for a couple of months, it would come and go, but i had overall tremor on my body.
Even my lips would shake when im smiling.
At one point around october, after no doctor found any cause for my symptoms i thought. Okay, this is just my anxiety tricking me again, like so many times before. And i kind of thought about other things. But a few things stayed. The fact that i was shaking, everytime i used my muscles at normal activieties. My arms would shake when i laid on the side. Playing Playstation, my hands hurt very fast, like after a few minutes. So i thought, it was because im so nervous all the time.
Then in Feburary this year. My leg, from one day to the other, started vibrating. All the time, with no pause, for 8 weeks. Also my calve would fasciculate. My feet felt stiff. And i felt overall very week. Then around april. It just disapeared for a while. I was so happy, i thought, if it where ALS it would not stop. (It shouldn't stop, right?)
But it came back. My thumbs got stiffer and stiffer. My ringfinger on the right hand is shaking and fasciculating all the time. All my muscles fasciulate from time to time.
My legs started to feel weak. My legs shake just when im standing. My left foot feels so stiff and it just won't stop. I loved playing videogames. But i hold the gamepad, and my ringfinger twitches and my handpalm, fingers and wrist hurt so much.
I went to doctors from time to time, to weaks ago i saw an internist and she said, "if it started a year ago and you can still walk, and hold everything its almost impossible that this is ALS". Is this true? What if it is a slow progression? She said, my reflexes are a little hyperactive, and i have a little clonus. But at the end she still said that she doesn't believe it is ALS. She did not even send me to do an EMG.
My newest symptom is, that i feel slime in my lungs and i just seem to be unable to cough it out, even with my astmah inhaltors, i seem to not get it out. This is going like for a week now, and it scares me so much. I fear that i suddenly wont get air anymore. (I stoped smoking, after waking up and i felt like i cant breathe anymore).
So, i have fasciculations all over the body, but mostly in the hands and legs. Stiffness and shaking in my legs and fingers. Shaking, in the arms, leg and hands, also when im smiling. I feel overall weaker then usual. I have shortness of breath. I seem to not be able to cough up the slime in my lungs. Sometimes i get food stuck in my throat. And i sometimes, get "yawning attacks" where i yawn for like 5-10 times. I had a vibrating feeling in my leg for months, which i now have not all the time, but mostly when i just walked or stood.
BUT iam still able to do anything. I still can walk, even with my stiff leg. I can stand on one leg on both sides. I can lift heavy things.
So what do you think? Iam completly freaking out. I have an emg appointment in september, i have no idea how to get through this month.
Do you believe i should be scared? The thing that scares me the most, is my stiff feet and my shaking fingers. These symptoms are there even when i feel relaxed and took my medicines.
Iam 28 years old and male.
Thank you for reading this very long text and taking your time. I hope you can answer some of my questions.
at first im sorry, i will probably do a lot of grammar mistakes, since my main language is german and i'm not very fluent in english.
If this text is to long for you, then you can skip to the end, where i wrote most of my symptoms.
And i really don't want to steal to much of your time, so i will follow your rules and if you say you don't think its ALS i will accept it and i won't start arguing.
Before i tell my story i will start with yes! I do have anxiety, and really, really bad anxiety. I thought i had so many diseases and none of my fears turned out to be true.
But this, is the worst fear i ever had and it just wont stop, because my symptoms wont stop.
It all started last year in june. I noticed that i have a tremor in my fingers but did not think about it to much, because i'm addicted to suboxone and diazepam, so you would think that tremor is very common in people who are addicted.
Then one day, i would paint the walls. It was just a little spot i had to paint and i hold the brush like 5 minutes. After i finished, my thumb started twitching uncontrollably. It scared me so much. So i made an appointment with my neurologist who send me to an MRI because he thought i maybe had the willsons disease.
At the MRI they found that my basalganglia are hyperintens. Then it all started. And it did not stop until today, i got 2 bloodtests they where all negative. Only my CK was about 6 points over the norm. Now one year later i had another MRI and the hyperintensity is gone.
At this point, you probalby wonder, what any of this has to do with ALS. I fear ALS because in this last year since june, came a lot of new symptoms. St first, my thumbs would shake when i used my smartphone, it came from time to time. So this went on for a couple of months, it would come and go, but i had overall tremor on my body.
Even my lips would shake when im smiling.
At one point around october, after no doctor found any cause for my symptoms i thought. Okay, this is just my anxiety tricking me again, like so many times before. And i kind of thought about other things. But a few things stayed. The fact that i was shaking, everytime i used my muscles at normal activieties. My arms would shake when i laid on the side. Playing Playstation, my hands hurt very fast, like after a few minutes. So i thought, it was because im so nervous all the time.
Then in Feburary this year. My leg, from one day to the other, started vibrating. All the time, with no pause, for 8 weeks. Also my calve would fasciculate. My feet felt stiff. And i felt overall very week. Then around april. It just disapeared for a while. I was so happy, i thought, if it where ALS it would not stop. (It shouldn't stop, right?)
But it came back. My thumbs got stiffer and stiffer. My ringfinger on the right hand is shaking and fasciculating all the time. All my muscles fasciulate from time to time.
My legs started to feel weak. My legs shake just when im standing. My left foot feels so stiff and it just won't stop. I loved playing videogames. But i hold the gamepad, and my ringfinger twitches and my handpalm, fingers and wrist hurt so much.
I went to doctors from time to time, to weaks ago i saw an internist and she said, "if it started a year ago and you can still walk, and hold everything its almost impossible that this is ALS". Is this true? What if it is a slow progression? She said, my reflexes are a little hyperactive, and i have a little clonus. But at the end she still said that she doesn't believe it is ALS. She did not even send me to do an EMG.
My newest symptom is, that i feel slime in my lungs and i just seem to be unable to cough it out, even with my astmah inhaltors, i seem to not get it out. This is going like for a week now, and it scares me so much. I fear that i suddenly wont get air anymore. (I stoped smoking, after waking up and i felt like i cant breathe anymore).
So, i have fasciculations all over the body, but mostly in the hands and legs. Stiffness and shaking in my legs and fingers. Shaking, in the arms, leg and hands, also when im smiling. I feel overall weaker then usual. I have shortness of breath. I seem to not be able to cough up the slime in my lungs. Sometimes i get food stuck in my throat. And i sometimes, get "yawning attacks" where i yawn for like 5-10 times. I had a vibrating feeling in my leg for months, which i now have not all the time, but mostly when i just walked or stood.
BUT iam still able to do anything. I still can walk, even with my stiff leg. I can stand on one leg on both sides. I can lift heavy things.
So what do you think? Iam completly freaking out. I have an emg appointment in september, i have no idea how to get through this month.
Do you believe i should be scared? The thing that scares me the most, is my stiff feet and my shaking fingers. These symptoms are there even when i feel relaxed and took my medicines.
Iam 28 years old and male.
Thank you for reading this very long text and taking your time. I hope you can answer some of my questions.