paulinej
New member
- Joined
- Apr 16, 2015
- Messages
- 7
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Diagnosis
- 01/2015
- Country
- US
- State
- Connecticut
- City
- Goshen
Hi, It's taken me a few months to get my head around this and register. My husband Steve was diagnosed January 2nd of this year. We had been told it was chronic Lymes, but then when things didn't improve the doubt started to set in for Steve, and we went to see a Neurologist, who tested Steve and told us it was ALS . We have gone for 2nd and 3rd opinions now and it is ALS. Wow what a strange start to a new year, you often think "what would you do if you were ever given a terminal diagnosis" I fell to pieces, Steve knew it was coming and was strong. We have our whole life in front of us, kids are both in College, are youngest Sam a freshman and Ben the oldest a Junior. The first time we had an empty home since our first year of marriage 21 years ago.It was the beginning of a brand new chapter in our marriage.
Steve is strong and positive 90 % of the time, he does get low, but finds the strength from somewhere to push through. He is till working, driving, doing everything he used to. He does get tired quicker, he has lost the fine motor skill in his right hand, he has Atrophy in his chest, arms, legs, and at some point i think the Neurologists said in his brain, but that was when i fell to bits. He has terrible fasciculation's all over his body, that make his stomach look like something out of the film "Alien" his cramps are bad in his legs, and pain has started in his neck.
It so hard to get used to this, its not fair, why us, why Steve. The future is unclear and cloudy, its hard to plan anything. I really just want to go back to the way we were, a happy young couple with the world at our feet, but then reality sets in and know that's all gone now. I am so strong for him, our boys, our friends, our family , that i think i forget about me, this is happening to me too, isn't it?
I stay off web md, i try not to google how long he has, i want to know but i don't want to know. I want a cure to come tomorrow.
I feel lost and just coming to work and watching everyone carry on when my world has fallen apart is tough.
i just need to know i am not alone.
Steve is strong and positive 90 % of the time, he does get low, but finds the strength from somewhere to push through. He is till working, driving, doing everything he used to. He does get tired quicker, he has lost the fine motor skill in his right hand, he has Atrophy in his chest, arms, legs, and at some point i think the Neurologists said in his brain, but that was when i fell to bits. He has terrible fasciculation's all over his body, that make his stomach look like something out of the film "Alien" his cramps are bad in his legs, and pain has started in his neck.
It so hard to get used to this, its not fair, why us, why Steve. The future is unclear and cloudy, its hard to plan anything. I really just want to go back to the way we were, a happy young couple with the world at our feet, but then reality sets in and know that's all gone now. I am so strong for him, our boys, our friends, our family , that i think i forget about me, this is happening to me too, isn't it?
I stay off web md, i try not to google how long he has, i want to know but i don't want to know. I want a cure to come tomorrow.
I feel lost and just coming to work and watching everyone carry on when my world has fallen apart is tough.
i just need to know i am not alone.