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- May 9, 2016
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- Lost a loved one
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- 06/2016
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- MN
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- Minneapolis
So finally we get the Trilogy tomorrow. It’s been a journey.
The thing on my
Mind on the moment though is my major CALS fail. I was attempting to leave the house for a few hours. That can still happen with everything in place. The miracles of the smart home stuff, the favevthst he can speak to Siri and Alexa and still get a drink thanksvyo the gizmo, and do on.
We don’t do it for any long period at all but it can be done.
Well. I was feeding and medicating and readying everything and he got stuck on something with the phone, insisting this and that did not work when it did, just generally feeling fussy. No doubt because he was a little anxious he’d been fussing all morning about this and that.
Well, I finally think all is settled and I get to the garage and he calls me about one more thing. I went into the house and started yelling and crying. Just say there and sobbed.
I fixed what didn’t need fixing, left again, called 10 minutes later to apologize, cancelled my original plan and felt terrible. He’s mad at me and I get it. I just had the wellspring if trapped sad angry frustration at this poor, dying man I love. So I failed him
Miserably.
That drama done, I still have to bring my mom clean stuff at the nursing home now. Or rather, the person who use to be my mom is what it feels like ever more.
I did all this stuff this weekend my husbands care, work (that was great times yesterday on the phone, pipes melting and freezing and busting all over at sites) and then I wreck it all in an epic fail.
Hopefully he forgives me, and I never lose it st a dying man who is the love of my life again.
The thing on my
Mind on the moment though is my major CALS fail. I was attempting to leave the house for a few hours. That can still happen with everything in place. The miracles of the smart home stuff, the favevthst he can speak to Siri and Alexa and still get a drink thanksvyo the gizmo, and do on.
We don’t do it for any long period at all but it can be done.
Well. I was feeding and medicating and readying everything and he got stuck on something with the phone, insisting this and that did not work when it did, just generally feeling fussy. No doubt because he was a little anxious he’d been fussing all morning about this and that.
Well, I finally think all is settled and I get to the garage and he calls me about one more thing. I went into the house and started yelling and crying. Just say there and sobbed.
I fixed what didn’t need fixing, left again, called 10 minutes later to apologize, cancelled my original plan and felt terrible. He’s mad at me and I get it. I just had the wellspring if trapped sad angry frustration at this poor, dying man I love. So I failed him
Miserably.
That drama done, I still have to bring my mom clean stuff at the nursing home now. Or rather, the person who use to be my mom is what it feels like ever more.
I did all this stuff this weekend my husbands care, work (that was great times yesterday on the phone, pipes melting and freezing and busting all over at sites) and then I wreck it all in an epic fail.
Hopefully he forgives me, and I never lose it st a dying man who is the love of my life again.