Ises, I'm so saddened by your sudden loss.
Our journey was quick--8 months from first symptoms until the end. I had really expected several years to come, and was even designing a house when suddenly Krissy whimpered a teary "It's time to call hospice." She was gone two weeks afterwards. We were married 20 years.
It's been a year, now, and my teens adjusted well. Both are active, athletic, popular and studious.
But I'm known for getting to the blunt point immediately, so here goes:
1. Meds and therapy: Search around for a therapist that can make you smile one day a week. You may have to try several, but it's worth it.
2. Antidepressant and sleeping meds are a Godsend.
3. Avoid more than one drink a day.
4. A good pool table and a ping pong table are worth their weight in gold, and might be nearly all the therapy the kids need.
5. Recognize that your husband would want you to get on with life and be happy.
5.a. No rush.
6. Music and TV and books: anything to get your mind off.
7. Crying daily is OK.
8. At work, the HR people can help you take A LOT of time off.
9. Come here often. Lots of good people.
I took my time, in fact, I haven't yet discarded, donated or bequeathed all my wife's stuff yet, but it's getting easier to do.
It took a year, but now I started a masters program, and it's really a great re-introduction to the social world.
I hope that something in here might help you on your journey into the future.
--Mike