mrvaughan
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- Joined
- Nov 9, 2013
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- 101
- Diagnosis
- 05/2000
- Country
- US
- State
- MI
- City
- Grand Rapids
I know that this is a very tough subject. I hope that it does not offend anyone, and I mean it to be more of a reaching out to see if there are others that seem to have the same issues. 5 1/2 years ago, after my husband went on a vent, we tried to keep our sex life going. He could not move his arms/hands/feet/legs etc, and vary rarely could maintain any kind of stimulation. I totally understood. He was sick, in pain, probably didn't feel the greatest about himself, couldn't lay flat, had different kinds of drugs in him, needed to be suctioned every 1/2 hour, etc. I admit, I was not motivated to be the "sexy wife" because I had turned into the "caregiver". Suctioning out his trachea, helping clean up the "accidents", digging food out of his mouth after he insisted on eating something he shouldn't, all are things that I don't mind doing (well okay, for some reason, I don't like flossing teeth), but it didn't add up to me wanting to maintain a physical relationship. We kept trying, but he always blamed me for not trying hard enough (to put it mildly and leaving out a lot of conversations) so about 4 years ago, we stopped all together and settled into what I thought was a comfortable relationship.
7 months ago, he started staring at me and constantly wanting me in his sights. He talked about sex constantly, and was badgering me to try again. His only conversations he could have with me were either complimenting me excessively, or angry because I should be a better wife to him. Without going into details, his demands for a physical relationship has blocked out any other conversation or thought about me. He tells me I'm weird, not normal, that I need counseling and help so that I can be a normal sexy woman again.
We talked to our neurologist about this, because my husband was trying to change all his pain medication around since he was totally convinced that the medication was stopping him from having a normal sex life. We have had 3 visits with her over the past 5 months as my husband has gotten increasingly demanding. She did tell us that many of her ALS patients have developed an obsession with sex. That one had divorced his wife, that another had fooled around with a nurse on his wife . She said that when someone is on a vent for a long period of time, that they seem to develop a mania. This was not really known in the past and just in the last few years there has been more research on it. In Japan, ALS patients are more likely to go on a vent, and the mania and obsession appears to present itself.
This has been a very hard road that we have been traveling. We have had good times and bad, but it just doesn't seem fair that after all the "giving" that I have done as a caregiver wife, that all that seems to be left in my husbands mind is that he wants me to start and maintain a physical relationship, and nothing else that I have done or am doing is worth anything. I do work full time, I maintain our household, provide the insurance, host the family every Sunday so he can see people, be his health advocate, give him a shower, assist the nurses in helping him with everything imaginable, try to keep our children and grandchildren happy and around…………. etc. I guess that is enough said. I really do want to be a good wife, but I really can't be a "sexy" wife right now, I wish that he could understand that.
7 months ago, he started staring at me and constantly wanting me in his sights. He talked about sex constantly, and was badgering me to try again. His only conversations he could have with me were either complimenting me excessively, or angry because I should be a better wife to him. Without going into details, his demands for a physical relationship has blocked out any other conversation or thought about me. He tells me I'm weird, not normal, that I need counseling and help so that I can be a normal sexy woman again.
We talked to our neurologist about this, because my husband was trying to change all his pain medication around since he was totally convinced that the medication was stopping him from having a normal sex life. We have had 3 visits with her over the past 5 months as my husband has gotten increasingly demanding. She did tell us that many of her ALS patients have developed an obsession with sex. That one had divorced his wife, that another had fooled around with a nurse on his wife . She said that when someone is on a vent for a long period of time, that they seem to develop a mania. This was not really known in the past and just in the last few years there has been more research on it. In Japan, ALS patients are more likely to go on a vent, and the mania and obsession appears to present itself.
This has been a very hard road that we have been traveling. We have had good times and bad, but it just doesn't seem fair that after all the "giving" that I have done as a caregiver wife, that all that seems to be left in my husbands mind is that he wants me to start and maintain a physical relationship, and nothing else that I have done or am doing is worth anything. I do work full time, I maintain our household, provide the insurance, host the family every Sunday so he can see people, be his health advocate, give him a shower, assist the nurses in helping him with everything imaginable, try to keep our children and grandchildren happy and around…………. etc. I guess that is enough said. I really do want to be a good wife, but I really can't be a "sexy" wife right now, I wish that he could understand that.