skipper66
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- May 20, 2012
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- IL
- City
- SMALL TOWN IN
Hi Everyone,
I am feeling so bad today. It will be my husband and my 19th wedding anniversary on the 11th of this month. Also, my dad's 78th birthday. I have friends but nobody close that I really do anything with. My husband unfortunately has abusive to me since the day we came home from our honeymoon. It was even physcial for awhile but now just strictly verbal.
I actually went to a lawyer two years ago around Thanksgiving and had papers drawn up to serve him for a divorce. But, I ended up collapsing and was put in a psyciatric ward for 2 1/2 weeks. I have suffered from depression since adolescence. I dated a guy before my husband who was several years older then for six years prior to my husband. He truly loved me and treated me like gold. I thought the age difference was too much for the long haul and walked away. I was a fool.
My current husband has never been supportive when I need him. I always wonder why he doesn't love me. Is it because I put on weight? When we got married I had a figure that was good enough to probally be in the Sports Illustrated swimsuit addition. My husband won't even talk to me about news events or anything. When my mom was in the hospital one of her many times before her passing and was on a vent he said to me "Kim, your mom is going to die and there will be no one to protect you. I am going to make your life a living hell." He said this while I was crying so hard over my mother that I was in the bathroom throwing up.
My dad has always been my rock. But, I can't go to him now. He can't help me now and can't handle the stress anyway. I go to a psychiatrist and am on depression meds. I have been to see a priest to talk about my dad's condition. Just started a new counselor but nobody can make my husband love me. I pray and pray that God will change his heart. Should I keep going to counseling? I just feel abandoned. Kim
I am feeling so bad today. It will be my husband and my 19th wedding anniversary on the 11th of this month. Also, my dad's 78th birthday. I have friends but nobody close that I really do anything with. My husband unfortunately has abusive to me since the day we came home from our honeymoon. It was even physcial for awhile but now just strictly verbal.
I actually went to a lawyer two years ago around Thanksgiving and had papers drawn up to serve him for a divorce. But, I ended up collapsing and was put in a psyciatric ward for 2 1/2 weeks. I have suffered from depression since adolescence. I dated a guy before my husband who was several years older then for six years prior to my husband. He truly loved me and treated me like gold. I thought the age difference was too much for the long haul and walked away. I was a fool.
My current husband has never been supportive when I need him. I always wonder why he doesn't love me. Is it because I put on weight? When we got married I had a figure that was good enough to probally be in the Sports Illustrated swimsuit addition. My husband won't even talk to me about news events or anything. When my mom was in the hospital one of her many times before her passing and was on a vent he said to me "Kim, your mom is going to die and there will be no one to protect you. I am going to make your life a living hell." He said this while I was crying so hard over my mother that I was in the bathroom throwing up.
My dad has always been my rock. But, I can't go to him now. He can't help me now and can't handle the stress anyway. I go to a psychiatrist and am on depression meds. I have been to see a priest to talk about my dad's condition. Just started a new counselor but nobody can make my husband love me. I pray and pray that God will change his heart. Should I keep going to counseling? I just feel abandoned. Kim