Mary Helen Barr
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- Mar 6, 2006
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Yes, I know that sounded terrible, but I know he wants the misery to be over, too. I wish it could be over by him getting better. MY father sometimes asks about his keeping me from my family, etc. I know he doesn't want things this way. He tells me frequently that if it weren't for me, he would be in a nursing home. That is definitely true, because my siblings and mother all think he should be in a home. I do NOT think he belongs in a home. His mind is still perfect. He's had ALS for 7 years now, and it is so hard to see how his body has been wasting. My siblings say that they'd never want their kids to care for them. I say that my dad would have said the same thing all the way up until it became necessary. I really don't mind usually, and I do think my caring for him is the "right" thing to do, it's just that sometimes it's overwheming. The things that keep him alive are OK (heart, eating, breathing, etc), he's just not mobile. It does seem that if everyone in the family would take their turn, noone would be overburdened, but it is not that way, unfortunately. I go back and forth between being glad to help, and being resentful. I have to say, that I have spent more time with him, and gotten to know so much about him, more than any of my other family members because of this. So, it's not all bad. He does try not to be a burden, which is kind, but is also so sad. Noone WANTS to be a burden.