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I wanted to start a new thread because I have to talk about incredible pain that I am experiencing and I need help.
I had the worst outbreak of whatever I have ever had in my life this last 3 weeks. I did not know how I was gong to survive, I am truly scared. My husband and i have been married for 20 years. He has always been emotionaly abuse withholding care and communication. Blaming me for everthing. This week while I was so sick I endured alone he never talked to me about any of it telling me it was all in my head even thought the dr had referred me to neuro.
Today he is gone he has threaten to kick me out of my home because I have been drinking. I can not hacdle all the pain and suffering. I feel do alone. He has been so mean to me. Talking to my friends ( he has none never has our whole marriage) that I am a drunk and this is all in my head. Honestly I feel like I could really hurt him I am so tierd of hurting. I took him back 2 months ago because he begged me to and now that i am sick he is totaly taking advantage of me. He is planning on taking my children from me. I dont know how I will deal with all of this. I am on a medcical leave of absence from work. This is my second one because my first on set was in June. It is not good. I work for Sutter Medical Center so they have to go through all kinds of stuff to fire me but I am scared. I went and secured an apt for myself for tommorow, but I have never lived without my children. The whole 20 years that wer have been married he has just used me to take care of the house and kids. He admited that to me. But now he is trying to kick me out claiming that I am a determent to the family. I am so lost and confused, He makes me feel like i just want to die I cannot win with him he is too powerful and evil waht do I do. He talks about me behind my back and minimizes my situation and makes me seem like I am crazy. And because his faults are so secret no one see;s the real man,
an evil manipulating prson with tons of hate in his heart.
Please advise
Thank you so much in advance
love and prayers for all
Robin
I had the worst outbreak of whatever I have ever had in my life this last 3 weeks. I did not know how I was gong to survive, I am truly scared. My husband and i have been married for 20 years. He has always been emotionaly abuse withholding care and communication. Blaming me for everthing. This week while I was so sick I endured alone he never talked to me about any of it telling me it was all in my head even thought the dr had referred me to neuro.
Today he is gone he has threaten to kick me out of my home because I have been drinking. I can not hacdle all the pain and suffering. I feel do alone. He has been so mean to me. Talking to my friends ( he has none never has our whole marriage) that I am a drunk and this is all in my head. Honestly I feel like I could really hurt him I am so tierd of hurting. I took him back 2 months ago because he begged me to and now that i am sick he is totaly taking advantage of me. He is planning on taking my children from me. I dont know how I will deal with all of this. I am on a medcical leave of absence from work. This is my second one because my first on set was in June. It is not good. I work for Sutter Medical Center so they have to go through all kinds of stuff to fire me but I am scared. I went and secured an apt for myself for tommorow, but I have never lived without my children. The whole 20 years that wer have been married he has just used me to take care of the house and kids. He admited that to me. But now he is trying to kick me out claiming that I am a determent to the family. I am so lost and confused, He makes me feel like i just want to die I cannot win with him he is too powerful and evil waht do I do. He talks about me behind my back and minimizes my situation and makes me seem like I am crazy. And because his faults are so secret no one see;s the real man,
an evil manipulating prson with tons of hate in his heart.
Please advise
Thank you so much in advance
love and prayers for all
Robin