- Apr 2, 2008
It's so hard waiting for the tests and not knowing what's wrong with me. I get the EMG friday and I have mixed feelings about it. I'm scared to know the results and yet I feel that friday is so far away. I feel like one night I'm just going to stop breathing before they figure out what's going on. I have a history of major depression and now I'm not on any medicine for it. Now I think I'm back in that hole, and even worse, I think about suicide some days now. I haven't eaten in a week, i can't sleep, I'm already under 100 pounds, and my family is being less than supportive. Today is a bad day.