Pandabear
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- Joined
- Apr 30, 2012
- Messages
- 36
- Reason
- Loved one DX
- Country
- US
- State
- Texas
- City
- Flower Mound
Ok, so I made it to wis, good flight, rentL car...got to city where my hotel is, and sitting next to me at stoplight is my sister in law! So that Must be a good sign!
Hard question...how will mom pass? Breathing? Will she just fall asleep and be with God? I think this will be peaceful for her..right?
I'm sitting at chillis, eating, having some wine, going to check into hotel..in other words procrastinating...not sure how I can do this...I know she is waiting for me...thinking maybe this is why step dad didn't want me to come quite yet,...She may just be holding on for me, her only daughter...oh God...
dear God help me Find the words....
How do we do this? I hate this..ALS is horrible..wish hubby could have made trip with me...alone...but later the rest of family will be near...
Then other night dad was crying so hard, so sorry..he feels so bad how he hurt hurt more than 30 yrs ago..feel like I am consoling everyone but me..stepdad a mess...
Please pray for my strength to do this?..
Sorry babbling..this is way too hard..mom was going to be Betty white..live to be a hundred, she was so health and active..18 mo later..the end..she was the youngest 73 yr old I know..man she could out walk me by miles...
Dammit!
Panda bear....
panda bear
Hard question...how will mom pass? Breathing? Will she just fall asleep and be with God? I think this will be peaceful for her..right?
I'm sitting at chillis, eating, having some wine, going to check into hotel..in other words procrastinating...not sure how I can do this...I know she is waiting for me...thinking maybe this is why step dad didn't want me to come quite yet,...She may just be holding on for me, her only daughter...oh God...
dear God help me Find the words....
How do we do this? I hate this..ALS is horrible..wish hubby could have made trip with me...alone...but later the rest of family will be near...
Then other night dad was crying so hard, so sorry..he feels so bad how he hurt hurt more than 30 yrs ago..feel like I am consoling everyone but me..stepdad a mess...
Please pray for my strength to do this?..
Sorry babbling..this is way too hard..mom was going to be Betty white..live to be a hundred, she was so health and active..18 mo later..the end..she was the youngest 73 yr old I know..man she could out walk me by miles...
Dammit!
Panda bear....
panda bear