- Aug 4, 2007
- Sylvan Lake
Hi just wondering how others have learned to cope when you feel like your losing yourself, the person you used to be. I was Mya the wife who loved to keep a beautiful home, landscaping and garding was becoming my new hobbie, cook and bake for my family, was the glue that held my family together when times became tough. I was the 30 year old esthetician, took pride in having myself looking good. I was the person who always took care of others made sure everyone else aroung me was alright. Mya the perfectionist. That's why this is so hard for me because I am such a perfectionist. That's why all my clients loved me, I never gave them anything but the best. If I was gardening I would measure with measuring tape my plants before I planted them. That's what makes this extra hard for me. I can't do things to perfection anymore, so I give up and would rather not do them, because when I do it reminds me I am ill. I know this is a bad attitude. It is so tough being a perfectionist almost to the degree I would consider myself a little compulsive at times and then you have to see your house not how you want it. My once fashionable wordrobe has been traded in for a housecoat or sweats or what is easiest, so much for the fashionable accesories. I look at my closet and it feels like an old life, the old Mya who used to be decked out, dressed to the nines. It also drives me crazy with my son, I know love is number one, but I always imagined shopping, having him all dressed up, taking him everywhere, And I feel bad because he is stuck in in his pj's at home with mom. It's just so hard I was always the one who was smiling, positive, would light up a room. Now I feel as if I have lost myself. Any advice on how to cope?