Hey guys. Been having some really bad days. Mums 6 months anniversary two days ago. Cried a lot. Very down in general. Fear is getting the best of me again. Everything slips off my hands, even the nails clips, everything slips, like i cant close fingers, cant hold the keys right. Sometimes fork too, like i cant hold it. My leg has been worse too, always tight. I go to bed and think of the mistakes. Giving mum antidepressants when she wasnt even depressed cause doctors didnt know what she had. The physio therapy. Her broken hand hurting her like hell and i was insisting on her to do it, we didnt know what she had. She was calling me crying. All the memories. Closing my eyes and pushing away the memories. I didnt hug her enough. I miss her. I didnt kiss her enough.