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- 01/2023
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Hi everybody. Thanks in advance for taking the time to read this post. I have been reading this forum for a few days now, and am so impressed by it on many levels. From how well it is run to how informative and supportive it is. Kudos to all.
So, my partner (55, male, otherwise healthy and clean-living) has been experiencing the following symptoms for around a year now:
Upper arm weakness and what appears to be muscle wasting - lifting his arms above his head is growing more difficult
Left hand weakness and what appears to be muscle wasting - there appears to be marked thenar atrophy and he can't really grip anything anymore
Stiffness of left leg - he now walks slowly with a limp, sort of dragging his leg along
Increasingly widespread fasciculations
Fatigue
These symptoms are painless, progressive and increasingly debilitating. For example, he is almost constantly fatigued, his fine motor skills are now significantly impaired (now types with one hand, needs help with opening bottles, for example), running is impossible (even walking is growing more difficult), and he can no longer pursue hobbies he enjoyed regularly less than a year ago such as tennis and sailing (can still cycle). Fasciculations are also now increasingly widespread and frequent – confined occasionally to one arm several months ago, they are now constant across both arms and shoulders and I think I am beginning to feel them in his upper thighs now too when we are in bed at night. But I have not said this to him as I don't want to freak him out anymore than he already is.
It all seemed to start in a leg. Just sort of stopped working properly early last year. Last May, he really noticed it when he went to run for a bus and found that he simply couldn't run. Since then, tennis and any activity like that is now gone. He has been to the physio, acupuncture, etc. But things just seem to be advancing. Particular in the last month where it all seems to have accelerated quite markedly. Or perhaps this is just a result of me taking things more seriously. I really just thought it was wear and tear, a trapped nerve, etc. But now I realise this is potentially far more than that. Sort of a wake up call when I look at everything together and see him declining in front of my eyes.
His PCP recently ran bloods and ordered a cervical MRI. Bloods clear. MRI showed something, but frustratingly I wasn't privy to the conversation. Apparently some spinal compression and arthritis. A neurology referral was also made, but this went out with the MRI referral. We have another appointment with the PCP tomorrow to assess whether what he saw in the MRI corresponds with these symptoms and the neurology referral is more a precaution, or if the MRI was inconclusive and further, more specialist investigation is required.
I have done a lot of research and am 99.9% sure it's ALS. Obviously he needs to undergo testing and only a qualified medical specialist can confirm. But in people's experience with this illness, could anything less serious be causing these symptoms I have described above? Isaac's? MMN? Cervical myelopathy? Etc.
I am just trying to assess whether there is any room for hope here. But it looks very stark. I am finding this very hard to bear. The not knowing. But also the sinking feeling, horror and anticipatory grief of knowing in my heart of hearts that this is ALS. To be honest I am not functioning I am so terrified, shocked and sad etc. I am sure this is a familiar space to many of you. I need to get a grip though, becasue if it is ALS, I need to be very strong for him.
Any advice at all is welcome please. I am utterly distraught. I love this man dearly and the thought of losing him to such a cruel disease is too much to bear.
So, my partner (55, male, otherwise healthy and clean-living) has been experiencing the following symptoms for around a year now:
Upper arm weakness and what appears to be muscle wasting - lifting his arms above his head is growing more difficult
Left hand weakness and what appears to be muscle wasting - there appears to be marked thenar atrophy and he can't really grip anything anymore
Stiffness of left leg - he now walks slowly with a limp, sort of dragging his leg along
Increasingly widespread fasciculations
Fatigue
These symptoms are painless, progressive and increasingly debilitating. For example, he is almost constantly fatigued, his fine motor skills are now significantly impaired (now types with one hand, needs help with opening bottles, for example), running is impossible (even walking is growing more difficult), and he can no longer pursue hobbies he enjoyed regularly less than a year ago such as tennis and sailing (can still cycle). Fasciculations are also now increasingly widespread and frequent – confined occasionally to one arm several months ago, they are now constant across both arms and shoulders and I think I am beginning to feel them in his upper thighs now too when we are in bed at night. But I have not said this to him as I don't want to freak him out anymore than he already is.
It all seemed to start in a leg. Just sort of stopped working properly early last year. Last May, he really noticed it when he went to run for a bus and found that he simply couldn't run. Since then, tennis and any activity like that is now gone. He has been to the physio, acupuncture, etc. But things just seem to be advancing. Particular in the last month where it all seems to have accelerated quite markedly. Or perhaps this is just a result of me taking things more seriously. I really just thought it was wear and tear, a trapped nerve, etc. But now I realise this is potentially far more than that. Sort of a wake up call when I look at everything together and see him declining in front of my eyes.
His PCP recently ran bloods and ordered a cervical MRI. Bloods clear. MRI showed something, but frustratingly I wasn't privy to the conversation. Apparently some spinal compression and arthritis. A neurology referral was also made, but this went out with the MRI referral. We have another appointment with the PCP tomorrow to assess whether what he saw in the MRI corresponds with these symptoms and the neurology referral is more a precaution, or if the MRI was inconclusive and further, more specialist investigation is required.
I have done a lot of research and am 99.9% sure it's ALS. Obviously he needs to undergo testing and only a qualified medical specialist can confirm. But in people's experience with this illness, could anything less serious be causing these symptoms I have described above? Isaac's? MMN? Cervical myelopathy? Etc.
I am just trying to assess whether there is any room for hope here. But it looks very stark. I am finding this very hard to bear. The not knowing. But also the sinking feeling, horror and anticipatory grief of knowing in my heart of hearts that this is ALS. To be honest I am not functioning I am so terrified, shocked and sad etc. I am sure this is a familiar space to many of you. I need to get a grip though, becasue if it is ALS, I need to be very strong for him.
Any advice at all is welcome please. I am utterly distraught. I love this man dearly and the thought of losing him to such a cruel disease is too much to bear.